backwards calendar

​In old history, Socrates said something like democracy is no good without people having access to the best available knowledge.

Ballot boxes are currently ignorant about the motion of the sun and its inverse square law.

​Better planetary motion and tidal knowledge permeating education is not going to stop earthquakes and hurricanes and viruses and asteroids or calamities like those. On the other hand, Copernicus, Galileo and Kepler would hardly wish their fixed sun mistake to be an ongoing part of democratic reckonings.

Currently we live count up calendars.  A count down calendar gives perspective of where we are going. Sets the goal of getting there. 

Sound academics work out when the next major planetary alignment is due. Plausibly that is 472 years in front of us. Call that year zero. Next year would not be 2021 A.D. Next year would be 471 Pre Alignment. The one after that 470 Pre Alignment. The planet gets younger as its citizens get older. Better fun. Or stick to religious calendars and fight wars and they sort of decided destiny.

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​A fattening pig. Born 1953 A.D.  

More so than the stars, the constantly changing heights of oceans are our first base glance at the rest of the universe. 

intro

Dreams that have happened. First known one Sook Chin in Penang before the funeral. In her dream she saw Abraham and asked him why he had done what he did. He then left.

With me voice says “He is hiding behind John”  (first week or so)

A few days later John’s landcruiser backwards  parked at the trough. See Abraham in new house. The door wrongly faces north. I put my arms around Abraham and say with great emotion “I can touch you”.

When at Concongella:-  was driving a taxi. Having trouble getting elderly passengers to tabaret. Start wailing “I shouldn’t be driving taxis, my son took his own life two months ago”. We aren’t in a taxi. I walk and carry them to tabaret. Afterwards I couldn't find taxi. Search for it. Take a call. Say Stawell taxis. It’s Veronica the taxi owner. I tell her I have lost the taxi. She says don’t worry about it the police are onto it or something. Go to your Stawell house. I tell her Ambulance victoria still have it. Then she says go to some other house Jo will take care of it. Jo Smith a former taxi driver is at this other house with daughters Kylie and Elsie. Kylie and Elsie are relaxing. I offer them a sandwich. Then Abraham is there I say I'll have to find another sandwich. There is a sudden realization of events at least on my side. Our eyes meet both with the realization that we are seeing each other after he  has died. He looks a little bashful. The four us us, Kylie Elsie Abraham and I leave in the green car.  I wake in Concongella just so thrilled to have seen Abraham in context of life as it is and tell Jo (Kingston) in the morning.

A little later at Concongella :-  the whole family was together somewhere or other with Abraham saying he might come and go a bit.

IN Stawell. In a car. I take a video with my phone and send it to Elsie. It comes out with Abraham and I viewed in the left hand side mirror of the car with our cheeks against each others.


In Kota Kinabalu Borneo when dream happens.  Abraham hops in land cruiser outside Stawell football ground to drive away. Looks like he knows what he is doing. Later in day relate dream to Gift hotel after his funeral. We (kylie) actually had trouble driving away from about where he did with no trouble (in the dream).

Me driving a taxi in stawell. Its Sunday. See a lot of taxis queued up on the corner of main and wimmera on the old mitre 10 side. Abraham in the front one. I turn around the corner and pick up Peter Campbell in the main street outside some function. He is drunk and wants to go 201 class street Concongella. I try to use a Melways as the internet to find it and struggle.  Only remember it was Abraham in front cab after I wake up. Mild surprise not so much to see him, but see him as a taxi driver.   

Talking to a policeman about Abraham and him being suicidal and having taken his life. We go up  a down escalator. I get angry when the policemen seems to dismiss a switch of a girl to lesbianism as his unsolvable problem. Policemen shakes his head and says he wasn’t dismissive. Us with this struggle up this down escalator  is the one way relationship happening he explains.  

17/10/2019  Vague as waking up. Said to myself (awake) that’s Abraham. Tracey Barber had somehow put a picture of him in front of me. He was happy and had his hair at the longer length.

18/10/2019 somehow Abraham was born again and Elsie had got rid of her grown up self and was a baby again. There was a van outside our stawell house and Jo said ‘My boy is here’.

25/10/2019 Abraham had left school. I was going to go to Murtoa and say he was doing his apprenticeship. Seemed to be Lubeck and a bit of plumbing fittings needed. 

28/10/2019 complicated. Didn't see Abraham. Something about stairs being built out of his grave. Can't recall details

29/10/2019 Caught Adam and Abraham fooling around looking like hanging themselves. They said they were only doing it because they knew I would catch them. Woke up unimpressed. As a dream suppose it was ok. Good to see  Abraham and Adam together.

1/11/2019 Didn’t see Abraham but was on the phone to insurance or someone about him being in Queensland and someone had gone through a red light and crashed into his car. Something like that.


17/11/2019.  Abraham was a toddler. We were in a bookshop or shop similar. Abraham was being friendly with a youngster younger than him. Both were very happy. I was worried he would make the younger one cry and the mother would come running back from another part of the store. That didn’t happen. They were both happy.  

6/12/2019  Didn’t see Abraham. Was going to his school to see how he had settled down after some incident or other. Was talking to a teacher when suddenly remembered he had died a fortnight before. The teacher didn’t know. Then seemed to get lost and had put my wallet down in someone’s house. Woke with my father driving and we are approaching the Stawell cemetery although it didn’t look exactly like the Stawell cemetery. 

15/12/2019 Vague in middle of night. Think Abraham was there. A car rolled down a hill. Minor damage when another was hit. John seemed to be there the most. Very vague and unsure of dream.

21/12/2019  Was riding a motorbike. Had a pillion passenger. It was Abraham. He had his white shirt on and was particularly close. I thought if he wants to be that  close it's not bothering me but he doesn’t have to be. Or something like that. Then he was half around in front of me asking if it was ok if he had some more funds. More or less woke up then unsure if it was fun or funds but probably funds. Pretty sure I answered in the affirmative in the dream although I definitely did when I woke. Initially when waking just a little annoyed that it was only a dream and that is the way it is. But that didn’t last long. 

22/12/2019 Same annoyance again upon waking. Can only see Abraham in a dream. But still. Remember it all pretty well. John Steele and Adrian Tyler had been in it to do with wood and little motors and John having been paid a million dollars for something to do with the Melbourne cup. Then Abraham was driving not sure what car. He passed John Kingston riding a push bike. There was something about boiling eggs. It was at John’s place. When Abraham got back he was in a caravan in front of Dad’s old house. I went crook at him for accelerating like that said there was no need for it. He said well things are different Mother has Monday and Tuesday off. Woke up with a lot of mixed feelings but he looked pretty relaxed driving the car the way he was. Good on you Bram. Reckon it was fun and not funds in previous night’s dream. You so much seemed your normal self. Seeing you in dreams seems pedestrian and mundane compared to the high emotion of grieving. But it’s good.

26/12/2019 Very unsure if it was Abraham. Might have seen him somewhere around the police station corner in Rupanyup. Woke up unsure if it was him or not.

01/01/2020 Dozing off in afternoon. Saw Abraham not sure of dream. Wasn’t deep sleep.

02/01/2020 pretty vague. Something to do with all John’s nephews needing the green car to get to what I presume was Abraham’s funeral.

06/01/2020 Bit vague on details. There were lions and other jungle cats in the kitchen at Wal Wal. Think my mother and father were there. When I awoke remembered Abraham, probably early to mid teens was sitting among them. Think Kylie and Elsie were there and they were going to catch an aeroplane probably to Western Australia. My mother asking them to take a yard for probably our pet dog. Abraham had a bunch of a green leafy vegetable in his hands and I only saw him after all the jungle cats parted and moved away,. None of the lions were being vicious. Friendly. Interesting dream.

26/01/2020 Was driving between some paddocks not sure where but seemed to own them. Probably Wal Wal area. Abraham said it was black soil. I said it wasn’t. Some of it might look black from a fire. Black soil was more like where Samuel Matthews lives. Woke up realizing it was Abraham. Hello Bram. Good to see you.

02/02  Complicated lead up in dream. Stephen Matthews and car were involved. I had sheep at John’s place and had them locked in around Dads house. John must have come home and opened the cattle ramp gate. I went down to his place to tell him. Two of the kids were there. Elsie was saying she is ready to start painting the car. I said sanding and all and she said yes. I was just lamenting that it is only two kids these days then suddenly realized Kylie was the one missing . Abraham was there. He was in a school uniform. When I said so good to see you he got up and moved about happy and very much his normal self. Then the dream ended with the alarm going off. Taxi day. Amazing that it just went off as I was seeing Abraham.It was a good dream. Abraham had a blue uniform on and was about 15. Might have got younger as he moved about, he was definitely happy. 

Complicated. I was holding Abraham thinking it was his brother. Probably. He was about 1  to 2 years old. I asked him if he knew where Abraham was and he said “dead”. Then the dream moved on and I realized it had been Abraham I had been holding in a dream and I wanted to get home quickly to record the dream before I forgot it.
Seemed to be Riachella I was trying to get to and it was arduous. A farm argument about money  being spent and a need to split the place and all sorts of things. Sciatic pain woke me and I realized it had all been a dream. Hope everything is ok Bram. You can see your father is a bit mixed up. Living in Stawell for a start and being involved with the farm is way behind. But I have been wishing for you a lot. All the best.

11/02/2020 Just as drifting off into a dream saw Abraham and Elsie together both happy. Abraham invigorated and in a colorful shirt. Suddenly didn’t continue into sleep and realized it was Abraham. Almost first thing thought of when waking in the morning.

13/02/2020 There was a school trip. I was part of it. We hadn’t got far  and Abraham was on the bus dead. Sitting in a seat. We got to wherever and a teacher told me he wasn’t dead at all. He was ok. I hugged her and said it was the second time we had thought he was dead. Then all the kids were painting a building white inside and out. Abraham had a six inch brush and was doing the outside. He was going well painting evenly without drips. Then we got back to where ever and Abraham was putting on his shoes. He had some hairs on his legs but not a lot. He was happy and I thought I heard him swear as he looked up to get on with something else. Then I was taking a phone call. Evidently there had been a complaint about the trip and someone  wanted to talk to the principal. When I awoke first thought was Abraham is alive. Gee you felt alive as i woke.

19/02/2020 Didn’t actually see Abraham. Was discussing what sort of car he wanted when he got back. I was going to price a new one. It was Astra I said in the dream but the actual car I was dreaming about was a Mondeo. Was wondering about a manual or not and got confused about Kylie having it for a while before Abraham got back if it was a manual.

22/03/2020 Didn’t strongly see Abraham. Middle of the night but seemed to keep waking up and going back to the dream. It was to do with bendigo. And me making sure Abraham knew Newton’s third law. 

26/02/2020 Had been here there and everywhere. Think I was in the old straw shed or something like the old shed that was removed years ago. Turned and saw Abraham. Asked if I could give him a hug. He said ok and we hugged considerably. Not sure what happened then. But remember being up in old lounge room with it changed a little but not much. Good to see you mate. Not sure of all of the dream except the part of seeing you. Hope everything is ok. On the calendar a year since your funeral day.  Would have to presume that you are worried about your father? Does that make sense? Without wanting to burden you, really would like to talk.

06/03/2020  Had two dreams both centred on Abraham having been revived after all by our resusative work on the night. The first can’t remember much of. Elected not to get up and record it.  The next about an hour later. We were at Riachella living in a shack and it seemed to be more where the tennis courts are. Perhaps. Someone from Nhill was there talking a bit. Kylie was over in  the house cooking. Remember it seemed a bit strange that I could hear Stephen Matthews laughing away and telling her how much he liked dogs. Particularly big ones. In the first dream Elsie was quite present. In the second one I was talking to Abraham about something and started saying how much we thought you had died that night and asked if he would like to know how much we had worked to get him going and that we thought we hadn’t but here he was. He gave a smile and pointed a thumb up and then down to the prospect of being told. Then he gave me a hug and it was beautiful.  Remember from the first dream not getting up because he was going ok and that was the main thing and I did need sleep as working tomorrow. Thankyou Abraham.

18/03/2020  Was driving towards the railway crossing at the Wal Wal hall. Abraham was with me. Told him I love you and explained I was saying it because of his accident. Or something. In the dream he seemed to have very much survived dying.  Always good to see you Abraham. The dream would seem to be a link between Abraham and Mum.

25/03/2020 Mainly remember the dialogue. At some building or other. May have been Murray Mcgregor's woolshed not sure. Abraham said to someone we are mainly watching the cricket anyway to someone nearby. I presumed he meant at school. My thought process went along the lines of he died last year but is hanging around with those he went to school with in his after life. So I said to him ‘do you know you died last year’. He just gave a smile and went on with whatever he was doing.  
Something like that. 

27/03/2020 I wasn’t going too well. Was in the brown torana and couldn’t stop it going backwards. Resolved if I am going to drive it I have to replace the brakes. Was in Stawell and had been at some function with a lot of young people and I was getting sick of it. I had gone back to school or something and  it wasn’t working out. So I bailed out of that and went to where I was staying. It wasn’t all that salubrious. On the way walked past Brendan Fevola sitting in the left hand side of a car. Complimented him on how he had lost weight. Went inside this ghetto type of place and there was something moving. Realized it was Zoe our little dog. There was also a life like stuffed animal there. I asked Abraham if he thought it was real. He said yes and I showed him it wasn’t. Then I woke up. As I gathered my wits realized Abraham had been there. Interesting dream. Hope you are ok Bram. Love you.

01/04/2020  Abraham had a navy blue or black tee shirt and was suddenly sitting opposite me at a table, He had a smile as if to ask what is going on here. The lead up in the dream was probably to do with methods of dealing with the corona virus. Not sure.  Saw Abraham and said “that;s Abraham’ and woke up.  Had been thinking during the day how much Abraham and I would have a strong relationship during the lock down as it is known and how it would remove him from the issue he had. As always Abraham, excellent to see you.

4/04/2020 Was living all sorts of places. Because of some change of circumstances was thinking we would move back to Riachella. Seemed to be going back to the farm, Then realized couldn’t. Ray was now living there. So ok then I will live in Stawell and was thinking of buying a house. Then realized already have a house in Stawell we will stay here I can travel to the farm and then Abraham poked his head in through the laundry door with a smile on his face. He was wearing his favourite shirt I think. During the day before (not dream) had really been wanting his help in setting up a way of recording on my computer so as I can make a Newton physics wrong presentation. And have long been wishing we had moved in here way before. Always picture the room Elsie sleeps in as your room Abraham. Love you mate.

10/04/2020 Not sure. Didn’t get up to record it. May have been me preparing something for Abraham.

11/04/2020 Woke up with Elsie saying I still get upset. Not sure if it was in reference to Abraham or not.

12/04/2020  Abraham was there and supposed to be beyond communicating to. Standing like a statue and comatose. I kept saying Abraham and he would smile or move a bit . That went on for a while. Then he said everything works out in the end. Or something like that. It was an interesting dream. Very hard to describe. Like he was playing dead and couldn’t keep a straight face. Always good to see you mister Abraham. If my dreams are real, you are a character.

17/04/2020 Had been dreaming Essendon were kicking goal after goal and then was at the Stawell football ground. There was foot races taking place. Saw someone who looked Abraham in one racing well. Thought of how good it would be if it was him. But it couldn’t be because he wasn’t with us anymore. Then woke up and thought it was probably was him. In the dream a little bit younger Paul Brown of Murtoa had been running in one.

25/04/2020  Abraham was riding John’s old 28 inch bike at the gravel pit paddock. It had been cultivated a bit. I was surprised that the bike was still going and at how well Abraham was able to ride it in rough sandy conditions. Whenever he went passed me I said “how are you going mate” and he didn’t answer. Just rode past looking happy. Earlier think we had all been staying at a motel and he wasn’t keen on talking to me then either.  Interesting. Some message in there somewhere.  Always good to see you mate.

26/04/2020 Abraham was lying on his back on a board across the bath at Wal Wal. I checked to see if he was breathing and he was but alseep probably and had his face screwed up probably in annoyance. Always good to see you mate. Seeming as if you aren’t always pleased to see me. Not sure. Have to do what I have to do.

28/04/2020 Had fatherly concern about a growth on Abraham’s body.  He said it didn’t really bother him and he had plans.

05/05/2020  Had been in a tunnel witnessing small nuclear explosions. Then went to a house that was being renovated. Abraham was there  building with loudish music going. He was in a big room and I asked him if that was his room. He said yes. Think Elsie was there somewhere. Probably had an ensuite. Decent smile on his face. He was very active.Love you Bram.

Later (another dream)  one of Kylie’s friends was talking to me about running and asthma. Abraham was nearby as a child. I tapped him and asked him how he was going. Then Elsie was in the car backing into a trailer using a reverse camera. It didn’t hook on but she kept going back pushing the trailer, probably with a boat on it. I surmised the coupling handle must need lifting up and was waving to her to stop. When I eventually got to the car think it was Abraham driving. Happy as usual.

08/05/2020  Was cleaning out a combine with a portable vacuum cleaner in preparation for a video conference. Can’t really remember all that but suddenly Abraham floated in personified. It was so real it was real. Wish I could do it more justice than that. There is a background as I am actually preparing a video link for this coming Sunday and I intend to send out invites on messenger after already putting it on whatsapp. And in the dream think I was doing the messenger part. Not sure but the suddiness of Abraham suddenly being there exactly as himself is unforgettable.  Hello Abraham. The thing was you were the most grown up ever. Remarked you are actually twenty not long after waking.

16/05/2020  Was just falling asleep beginning to dream and Abraham was there. Nice smile on his face.  Dream hadn’t really started. Could have been something about chess and Elsie. Not sure. That was a thrill.

17/5/2030 Similar to previous night probably saw Abraham walking with Stawell tech jumper on as I was falling asleep. Less certain than previous night but similar disposition if it was him. 

20/05/2020  Not sure where it was. Abraham was probably about fifteen.  He was doing something with a red air compressor. Could have been at ligar street in Stawell where my grandfather used to live. There were others about. Not sure who. I had to go and do something. Before Ieaving went to tell Abraham something about starting the air compressor up and hugged him and said several times “please don’t hang yourself” Then realized I was dreaming and went to write the dream down. It was on the dog’s tummy, the one he had scratched just before he died. The tummy was full of markings and the dog was unimpressed with me trying to find somewhere else on its body to write. Then I woke up. Something like that. Abraham was just a bit younger and being Abraham. Was just so good to see you Abraham. Sorry if I am being dramatic. Hope I am not impacting the progress of your afterlife in a negative way.   

23/05/2020 Not sure how the dream got to where it did. Abraham had a large tin over his head.  I took it off and said something like “don’t go back to that trouble you had last year. If you can’t talk to your parents, we will find someone you can talk to.

01/06/2020  I was doing something with a ratchet I coudn;t make work on a jet aeroplane that looked like it had been in a minor mishap.  Think I was with my father and perhaps Peter Matthews. Abraham came walking by on his way from school by the look of it.  Was about 13 and wasn’t taking much notice of what us adults were doing.  I said hello Bramster.  Then I woke up. Abraham it was just so good to see you. 

02/07/2020  Was preparing to play a game of something like cards. Was going to score and was trying to improve handwriting as part of the preparation. It was between Abraham, Elsie and I and someone else. Possibly Beth.  Benny Maher was sitting there and he was talking with Abraham and I about car types. I asked Benny if he knew Abraham.  He said yes with a smile on his face and said “you killed him but here he is”.  I nodded and said he will probably go now. And I woke up. As always Abraham, great to see you.

Well Abraham I have a new computer. Not a dream. Things seem to be going okay.

11/07/2020 Think was seeing Abraham a lot.  I went over to him and asked him if he got lonely at all now that he is dead and asked him if he wanted to go for a walk. He said okay but he was going for one with Leo Rabl and my father. I said they mightn’t want me along so later. Then I woke up. Hope things are good mate. You seemed so normal and hadn’t or haven’t  put on weight. Thanks for being you’

13/07/2020

All pretty vague.  In the dream made some decisions that other people didn’t like and said you have to make your decisions and stand by them. Could have caused some disarray. Was thinking about the dream (awake) and suddenly remembered Abraham had been in it. Dogs were involved and I went into a dog yard (think) and that is when I saw Abraham and asked if he was  ok. He turned or got up with a broad smile on his face and nodded in the affirmative.  The dream went on for a bit and realized Abraham had been in it as I started recounting the other bits and pieces. There were many others in it. Jack Fontana for one at the end, And I think Mary Rabl earlier. Probably my mother and father.  Abraham wasn’t central but as always, mate real good to see you.

16/07/2020 Didn’t see Abraham. Think I heard Beth say something he would be helping mark lambs over the road at Sharpley which was Deutchers paddock.

19/07/2020 Was in Stawell. Trying to find what house I lived in. It was up the north end of Stawell A weatherboard one. I had been riding my old blue car as a push bike and it was going well. Went inside. Pretty sure Jo was there. And Abraham was there as well with a smile on his face. I gave him a hug. He reciprocated. Thought to myself this is real, finished hugging and said “I am just going to  watch what you do” He went over to a wall and looked like he was trying to get out through the wall and he probably did. At least I woke up then. As always excellent to see you Abraham.  Except for perhaps from your father, you seem to be free. Love you.

25/07/2020  Think Jo and I were somewhere around the sweeping bend just out of Glenorchy. Not sure. Abraham was with us and I was saying to Jo “still don’t know why Abraham is here with us and he is not there to go to school”  Not sure what age he was but he seemed to be turning into Zoe the dog. Or Zoe was just there. Not sure.  I was about to say to him you know you hung yourself then I woke up. Something like that. Good on you Bram.  Hope everything is ok.

Back to sleep and an hour later. Abraham was on the phone talking to someone. He was at a desk with his feet up. Think I said “how come you are here. Is this real . Am I dreaming” and I touched him and felt him and thought it must be real, Think Kylie was there as well. Then I asked him if he ever talks to Kayla. He shook his head quickly. Then I said how about Adam and he nodded quickly.  Then I woke up. It was a dream. Even if it is only dreams, love seeing you Abraham.

31/07/2020  Abraham was in Melbourne. I was trying to ring him. Could hear his voice but he couldn’t hear me. Then remembered that his phone wasn’t working properly. Wanted to ask him if he was coming home, Somehow I had seen him just earlier (think). Wherever I was Kylie and probably Elsie were with me. Then Jo had walked in and she might have been the one who said give him a ring.  Not sure. But Abraham was definitely there. Always good to see you Mister Abraham.

6/08/2020 Can’t really remember but Abraham was there a lot. Along the lines of how lucky we were to have Abraham alive. Wish I could remember it better.

7/08/2020 Didn’t see Abraham but dreamt I moved his grave site to Halls Gap. I was having trouble getting his phone number right for a start. But then I had enough digits. Something like that.

08/08/2020 Can’t really remember. Think it was more photos.  It was about Abraham’s life overall and had a sad touch to it. Hope everything is ok Bram.

13/08/2020 Elsie and Kylie were happily playing in an orchard. Abraham was with them. I was looking on and was very careful not to disturb the scene as I knew Abraham was just visiting. Don’t think Kylie and Elsie were aware Abraham was there. I kept watching and Abraham was on a pole way above. Then the person on the pole kept changing. Sometimes it was a statue and at one stage I was there as myself up on it as I watched on from below. It was wondrous. Thank you Abraham.  You are an excellent son.


17/08/2020  Abraham was at a table talking with his friends and was saying someone tries to start a conversation with him on the phone and he has to try and get out of it. Then Adam and I were away somewhere, He was trying to cook some meat. When that was organized Adam said some would be leaving from Stawell and some from somewhere else this week. I wanted to talk to Adam about what I see Abraham doing in my dreams but refrained when I realized Adam wouldn’t know what I was talking about because they were my dreams. Yet I was dreaming at the time.

21/08/2020  Didn’t see Abraham. Mentioned his name to my father (think) as per the quickest way to Stawell and the dispute Abraham and I had had back in the day and he seemed to be about as either a little dog or perhaps a hare.  Something seemed adventurous about Abraham’s lot after all the waking up and drifting back to sleep. Hope so you are a fascinating son.

09/09/2020  Abraham was on a bed with Elsie. Elsie was probably in her teens. Abraham was about 1 to 2 years old and he could not have been happier.  The tv was on, probably in a motel.  Elsie was a little annoyed about something and turned the tv up and Abraham was beside himself with happiness.  I said shake hands as in teaching him to shake hands and he was just pure entertainment with his happiness.   Hope I can take heart from that dream mate.

22/09/2020  Abraham visited Jo and I while we were in bed somewhere.  Said he had come to visit his boys. Not sure who his boys were but said he liked looking after them.  I gave him a pat on the head and said that’s good. There was a fire going in a fireplace and Abraham said he lights it up after it dies down. Love seeing you mate. 

23/09/2020  Elsie and Abraham were around the 8 to 10 year old mark. Perhaps a little younger.  Somehow it was my parents old bed and I went to get something to roll on it. When I came back Elsie and Abraham were one at each end doing whatever and I wasn’t impressed because I still had something to do to make it even though they had made it up somehow. Then there was slicing cheese or something and it probably went on a bit, It was only after I woke up and went back through the dream that I realized Abraham was in it. There was lots of stuff in that dream.  Good on you Abraham.

28/09/2020  Didn’t see Abraham but was walking towards his grave from the woollen mills end.  Think I was supposed to be meeting others there but I was late. There was another funeral happening and I had to walk past it. I was carrying a green garden chair for some reason or other. Someone said ‘hello George’ as I walked by and only half recognized them. Hope things are ok mate.  I am sticking to my just begun Wednesday afternoon visit schedule. Want order in my life. 

30/09/2020   Once again didn’t see Abraham.Was driving a car with a trailer behind. Originally it had been a new set of portable sheep yards.  Was in a car with my mother and father and other family members. Not sure who. I wanted to check to see if the lights on the trailer were working. No one else seemed keen on this. Eventually said we will visit Abraham and do it there. I said ‘it’s It was Wednesday morning and I am going to visit his grave site on Wednesday afternoon anyway’.  To get there I drove past the edge of the house in Gertrude street where my grandparents had lived. Then I woke up. Interesting.  Rather see you than do these visits to your grave site. Guess that was the Wednesday visit.


05/10/202 Abraham was riding a horse in a horse race.  Think the horse won.  The other jockeys were congratulating him anyway. One was Trevor Tyler. I ran over to shake his hand and he looked very stony faced. Concluded he was dead relative to the other jockeys and was doing a good job riding a horse. Hope you are alright mate. See you soon.

11/10/2-2-  Not sure. Might have been a mistake Jo was in it.  Don’t think Abraham was in it alive but not sure. Wish I could recall the dream.
Another dream later, no details again but everything seemed happy. I found an equation or something to work it out. There was happiness everywhere.

13/10/2020  I was with Abrham thinking of going to the USA and zeroed in on Kansas and asked him if he would like to come.  He said there might be a problem there had been one with New Zealand.  He seemed to turn into Rob as I woke up, In an earlier dream I had been in the Ligar street house which was deserted, Was with Kylie and Elsie. They had been trying to block up a window where the wind was rushing in, I thought of asking them if Abraham had been with them when they were here doing 
it earlier and refrained when I realized Abraham had died. I was trying to block the wind as well and said I would come back later with a teck gun.

16/10/2020   Jo and I were active and I stopped because Abraham was there and I said it is a bit rude doing it in front of you. Think he was happier when I stopped. He didn’t want to watch anyway.. Something like that but it was definitely Abraham.  Bit embarrassing all around.

19/10/2020 Was in a woolshed, sort of the Wal Wal one but sort of not. I was doing something with my sheep, And asked Abrham to do something with a dog. He vanished out of the back of the shed with the black dog and I asked him to not go there but go somewhere else. And then he was gone. John was there and I kept asking Abraham to come out. The funny part was I realized it was a dream and wanted to write it down in a spiral notebook that I thought was in the woolshed.One that I write all my dreams of Abraham down in. But John had thrown it out when he cleaned the woolshed out.  I went to where he said he had thrown it but the dumpster was gone, tears started falling from my eyes behind a front end loader. And then woke up. Great to see you Abraham.

22/10/2020 Unsure of it all, Abraham was in a next room studying. I shouted out I love you Abraham in an anguish way and suddenly realized he would have heard me and decided to push on as nothing had happened as there was nothing I could do if he had heard his father’s anguish, Sorry about that Abraham. I was writing down the quadratic equation formula but it changed mistakenly as I was doing it and it was then in John’s handwriting, There was more of Abraham in the dream I think before the bit I could remember when I woke up.
Later was in a house somewhere in Stawell. Jo and I were in bed. Jo felt uncomfortable during intimacy and then Abraham left the room with a smile on his face.

26/10/2020  Saw a few people including my father. Had the land cruiser loaded up with stuff. Then I was digging a hole and said to Abraham “I am just an idiot” He was young and it was reference to the fact that I once had an intention of building an air compressor,  I was cleaning up stuff from around the house at riachella that amounted to getting rid of stuff I had never used and how I had wasted time on pointless projects.  

29/10/2020 Not sure how the dream went but Abraham lived through the previous but died of a poisoning. Before he died he was very much his normal self. However the dream went, good to see you Abraham.

05/11/2020 Not sure where we were. I was trying to find clothes to put on. Elsie was there and then Abraham came in dressed going about his business. There was more to it than that, can’t remember, perhaps something about a pipe. Think Elsie was in a bad mood because I couldn’t find my clothes. Hello anyway Abraham.

11/11/2020  Not sure how the dream went,  But Abraham had taken his own life, I was wailing a lot but think he died happy. Can’t really remember it all. There was various Rupanyup people about and I had been painting an adjustable spanner for some reason or other, 

19/11/2020 Didn’t see Abraham. Heard Jo in a mentioning him to someone in a supermarket in the context of kids growing up.

04/12/2020  May have seen Abraham on TV as I fell asleep. Not sure. As always Bram. A few weeks ago heard you aren’t coming back. Can only thank you for all the dreams mate. Truly love you.

05/12/2020  Had these funny augurs for unloading grain.  Asked Abraham if he was right to help with one, He said ok.  Something like that. And then woke up. All the best mate.   

20/12/2020  Didn’t see Abraham. Dreamt I was getting a bed ready for him.   

23/12/2020  Just as falling asleep and entering a dream, Abraham was with the girls in the living room.  Looked pretty relaxed. 

27/12/2020  Just falling asleep after waking up in the middle of the night. Elsie and Abraham each had one plug of a ear phone set in an ear.  Elsie got up and moved away.      

02/01/2021  No visible sign of Abraham but was given an envelope in a car park in Horsham by Alison King.  It was wet but pulled out two letters. They were dry somehow.  Recognized the handwriting distinctively as being from mother and father. Woke up thinking of Abraham.

04/01/2021  Was dozing off in the afternoon. Beginning of the dream Jo was carrying Abraham. Woke up surprised.  

07/01/2021  Not sure of dream, It went on bit but had been in a room where Abraham had been doing art work. There was a mural he had made.        

11/01/2021.  My father and Lyndall from South Australia came back from down the paddock.  Abraham was with them.  About 15 and looking wistfully interested.  I got confused as I was counting three children and thought there were only two now.   My mother started saying things have to change around here and I informed her I will leave and was about to set off to finish my project in the car in outback NSW or something.    

14/01/2021  Was just dozing off in the afternoon. Can’t really remember the dream but Abraham was jumping and moving somewhere as I suddenly awoke.  Pretty sure there was more of him prior to that.  

15/01/2021  Abraham was suddenly there looking around for something, Not sure what or where.  Indoors though would say. Looked busy and knowing of what he was doing.    

25/01/2021 Went next door to discard some clothes at a neighbours recycle skip.  His place was locked so couldn’t. When I got back Kylie and Elsie were on some steps in front of a house.  They were grown up but at their feet was a little boy.  It looked like Abraham as a young boy.  I kept looking to make sure.  Think his head came off and then went back on. Hope you are ok mate.    

29/01/2021  Dozing off in afternoon.  Woke with a start when I realized Abraham was in the dream.  Sketchy on details.  He was walking past someone and gave them a tap on the leg.

30/01/2021  Abraham and Kylie as youngsters were being held hostage by some unstable bloke with a gun in a flat.  He ran away and Abraham was ok, Think Kylie as well.  Funny dream.  It was mostly about the unstable bloke.

03/02/2021  Was in Tasmania visiting a dam. John was there with a (probably) a tourist guide.  As we left Abraham was walking with us as a 17 year old. Somehow he had carved out a different life. Good to see you again Abraham.

05/022021  Not sure of all the details but Abraham had been in it at one point.  He was building something and I told him it was going to be ok because I believed in him. Seemed happy. There were a lot of others in the dream. Complex one but Abraham was fine.

08/03/2020  Was on a small island just off the coast of a larger one.  There were kangaroos and koalas on it but it was very small.  The tide must have risen and suddenly Abraham and Elsie were there as youngsters. About 8 and 6.  I said we will have to go back in and asked Abraham if he could swim.  He said he could but he started having trouble on the way and I carried him back to a larger island.  Love you Abraham. Hope you are ok.  Love seeing you.  Things ended ok.   

16/02/2021  Not sure.  Was driving to W.Australia.  Drove up a steep incline. Think Abraham was there.  Think he walked around the edge of the road where it wasn’t so steep. I went back for a cup of coffee that I had left sitting on the edge.  The dream had been a while before I woke up.

22/02/2021  Had been walking down a road with Peter Matthews.  Had been up in his area to pick up a field bin. Then was home in bed with Jo. Abraham was nearby in another bed.  Jo was laughing and started getting dressed. Abraham was looking away as she did to make sure he did not see her without her clothes on.  Good to see you as always Abraham.

​27/02/2021  We had just moved into a house at a Riachella.  Jo and I. People were leaving welcoming gifts. John Hemley was one. Then Abraham was there. He was taller than me. I asked him if he wanted to go back to sleeping on his own and asked him if I could give him a hug. He said ok. We embraced and I told him I loved him. He asked me if I did right through.  I said every bit of you. Then I woke up. As always mate, hope everything is ok. Apologize for anything I do wrong.

​01/03/2021  Abraham was young and I was lying on my back holding him above me, probably outside an airport.  He said he was going to help me with all that mental arithmetic. Lots of other stuff in the dream.  Too hard to describe.  Thanks Abraham.

​06/03/2021  There was a lot of Abraham and only Abraham it seemed. Think it was anti war.  Very hard to detail. Love you mate.

12/03/2021  There were windscreen wiper motors being bought for cars.  Pretty sure it was Abraham in the dream. I asked “do you know how it fits”.  The answer was “not really”.  And I woke up.  If it was you, good to see you mate.

​28/03/2021 Not sure of it all. It was just a phone call and Abraham’s name was mentioned.  Been in an accident. The call was about whether other cars were involved or not.  Hope things are ok mate.

​30/03/2021   I was sitting on a truck roof in a shed reaching and doing something.  Abraham was there with me wearing a blue t shirt and shorts.  I asked him if it bothered him that he had hung himself and was not living life out to old age.   He answered with a wry look on his face.  Think the answer was along the lines of have to think about that.  Not sure. But he had a smile on his face. Then he was gone and I started to rush to a house to write the dream down because I knew I would be having a dream if I had just seen Abraham . Woke up ln bed and did. Truly good to see you mate. Woke up all excited.

5/04/2021  Was asking Abraham how come he was home from work.  He had his hair at the longer length and a real cheeky look on his face.  Good to see you Abraham/

Later.  Not 100% sure it was Abraham but not sure who else it would have been. He  was in a bed at the Rupanyup football ground asleep.  I checked on him and woke him in the process.  He woke angrily and said he was tired, I left him to sleep. Sorry about that mate.

10/04/2021 Was at an adult type bar, probably nudes about, not sure, with Michael McCarthy and Stephen Matthews and probably someone else.  Those two were having a dispute about something so I asked if they wanted a drink. Stephen said yes please I went to order and found it was 10 dollars a pot.  Wasn't too keen on that so went back to tell them how much. Abraham was there with them at a younger age about 12.  I scratched his knee in recognition and he looked up and smiled happily.  I told the others how much drinks were and we promptly left without another word spoken. Always good to see you Abraham.

​16/04/2021  Bit hard to describe.  At the end of it Abraham covered over some bed quilt which the dog had been on and dribbled some milk.  I went out to do something and came back and realized he had covered before I had a chance to clean the milk off.  He was only young and had his hair dyed redish for some reason or other.  Kylie was about and I was about to tell him what he had done in an frustrated tone when I woke up.  It was quite a dream. Hello Abraham. Haven’t really done the dream justice but it was a good dream. Lovely dream. Always good to see you Abraham.

​23/04/2021  Entered a room, think. Anyway Abraham was there full of energy with Kylie Elise and Jo from memory.  Only realized the dream after waking at the realization I had said 2 girls and boy or something like that.  The definite was Abraham and he seemed well.  Great to see you again, mate.

​12/05/2021  John Kingston asked me where Abraham is.  I said I didn’t know I don’t think he is with us any more. He didn’t survive a hit on the head. Woke feeling a neglectful father.   Hope you are ok mate.  Got faith in you. 
13/05/2021  Was getting up to go work somewhere. Think I had a teaching job.  Was surprised to find Jo sleeping on the floor beside the bed,  Abraham was with her at a younger age just looking about.  Think that is how the dream went. Didn't wake with a strong memory of it.
14/05/2021  Didn’t see Abraham but had a dream where Elsie said he had sent a message saying he was in June.

​16/05/2021  was sitting in a comfortable chair Abraham was passed to me as a baby. He grew up a bit in my arms and I asked if he knew what all the words meant yet.  He was considering his answer with a thinking smile on his face and I was going to ask him if he knew shirt as I woke up. That was a thrill. All the best Abraham.

​28/05/2021  Remember earlier part of dream better. Awoke with an arm around Abraham saying I made a mistake brother.   Earlier part of the dream had been Leslie Neilsen on a poster and Michael McCarthy driving a semi trailer up a steep hill. Just suddenly woke and said Abraham was in the dream.  My guilt is my guilt forever Abraham.

2/06/2021  Think was up a building with Abraham,  Then suddenly he was gone and I started wailing I have lost Abraham.  Not sure how old he was,  Hope everything is ok mate.  I do have a lot of inner turmoil.  Later saw Abraham again.  Didn’t get up to write it down but he was happy.  Not sure of his age in either dream. Probably about mid teens in each.  He wasn’t unhappy in the first one. Just suddenly wasn’t to be found and everything went dark and I walking along what seemed like Minneboro road.

​09/06/2021  I asked Abraham if it was a real romance or just one where he saw her at school.  Not sure how it went from there.  Hope things are ok mate. 

​12/06/2021 Didn’t get up but probably had a dream with Abraham in it.  Not sure how it went.  I was distressed and saying his name and then was congratulating members of a winning team or something and stumbled when it came to a team member called Abraham.

​24/06/2021  Not sure of the context was just drifting into a snooze after lunch and saw Abraham.  Looked fine.

​12/07/2021  It had to have been Abraham.  I was trying to find out what time it was on my computer.  It was dark. I thought it was daylight and suddenly realized it wasnt. The little dog was there and we sort of in a cubby house.  A voice from behind somewhere said “you will hurt the dog if I do something or other.”  I said who is talking is it young man.  And I woke up.  Not a positive identification but couldn’t see how it could not have been Abraham.  Circumstances.

​13/07/2021  We were travelling around in a car. Seemed to be Seaby street Stawell. John Kingston was one and I was another and Abraham was another and we were in the back. He was about 15,  I couldn’t believe it was him.  Think I called him Rob at one stage and I was overjoyed within that he was there alive with us.  I thought at some stage I would have to talk to him about his funeral and how everyone had gone into shock because we thought he had died.  He was happy and it was just so great to see him.

​30/07/2021  Jo and I were living in Gertrude st Stawell in the house of my grandparents,  We had another a child, a baby just waking called George and Jo asked if I could take care of him or something. I was still in bed. I was talking to him and he was talking a bit as well.  I explained we had Abraham but now you or something and his hair went red just like Kylie has died hers.  Didn’t see Abraham specifically but….

​14/08/3021  Abraham was about 10 and ducked under a toilet door causing someone to exit.  Then I was trying to relieve myself having trouble getting started.  I growled at Abraham a bit for causing the other person to come out.  He was questioning about what he had done wrong and told him would have to wash his feet.  Before I went in I could see his feet off the ground under the partition and I told him to avoid doing that because it was worrying,  Hope everything is ok mate and good to see you.

​04/09/2021  Can’t remember the context.  Had seen Abraham a lot earlier in a dream and just realized it a whisker after waking up after a few hours sleep.  Pretty sure it would have been along the lines of we thought he had died but somehow survived,  Really wish I could recall it.  Been a while but lovely to see you Abraham.

​06/09/2021  Abraham was young and sitting with me with a smile on his face.  Some others were around and I was just so happy.  It was probably at Riachella. Went through the business of thinking he had not died after all and then realized I was dreaming and went looking for my computer to write the dream down and couldn’t find it. Woke up after some one was being macabre about suicide. Asked them not too mainly remember being so happy to be with you Abraham.

​11/09/2021  Abraham was probably about 15 although he seemed to get younger.  He was sitting on a toilet getting frustrated with toilet paper pulling it off and looked upset with something. It was going everywhere. I went to him and hugged him and told him it is ok you will get through this.  After a while he laughed, didn’t seem to have any teeth and pulled his pants up. I said I hope your bottom is clean and he laughed again and said he had two wipes. He was happy again and I was some what detached and didn’t feel like going to work.  Love you mate. From memory my motivation in giving you a hug was I am not going to let you hang yourself again.

​16/09/2021  Not sure what the dream was about. Abraham was young and upset about something.  I was to take him and Elsie and someone else to school in Stawell.  He was arguing about which seat was his. Wish I could remember the dream better. Hope things are ok mate. 

​17/09/2021  Didn’t get up but there was a dream.  Should have. Vaguely remember it was to do with the video I am making.  Not sure.  The reason I didn’t get up was I said to myself “he is ok”. Love seeing you mate.

​22/09/2021  Both Abraham and I were driving taxis in Melbourne.  He was called to a job and said he better get some fuel first. A supervisor was saying he would have enough just to look out for where sparrows are. That is a sign of European settlement.  I added that even where you grew up there were sparrows. My thoughts in the dream were along the lines of he was fully recovered from the time he had an attempt on his own life. Love you Abraham. 

​27/09/2021  Abraham didn’t appear but Jock McGregor was offering to have his coffin moved to somewhere near his place and have it placed in the ground vertical. He seemed concerned about whether or not there was anything else in the coffin.  I told him there was few little things.  He had some special procedure arranged involving an African practice or something or other. Gee Abraham. Don't know what that was all about. Love you.

​28/09/2021   Abraham had gone to Melbourne with the boys and he made it,  Kylie and Elsie were in the dream.  Think it had been a complex one. Enjoy yourself Abraham

​12/10/2021  I was trying to find a jumper I had lost at the football.  Then Kylie and Elsie were there somewhere.  I asked Elsie if there was any problems.  She said no.  Then we started walking.  Abraham was telling me if I like things now because I could buy tomatoes different.  His voice was quite deep.  Then he ran off with a skip when he realized what he was saying was not going to make sense. The girls chuckled. Suddenly realized it was Abraham when I woke up. Really good to see you mate.

​24/10/2021  Walked into a workshop. Was talking to myself about a pre-war car I was seeing and Abraham was there walking with me. Then we seemed to be in a kitchen somewhere, possibly Wal Wal and I asked if he was happy.  Gave him a hug.  Couldn't see his face for a start and then I could.  He was about 4 years old at the end of the dream. Probably mid teens earlier. Great to see you Abraham.

​28/10/2021.  We were on holiday somewhere just out Sydney. It was a complex dream but we were getting ready to go home and encountered Abraham during the packing and getting ready process.  Just remarked to myself that he was ok or something.  A little later woke and suddenly remembered Abraham had been in it. Jo and John were also there, John was wearing an old jumper or mine and all sorts of other things.  As always Abraham, good to see you.

​03/11/2021  Was looking after a little kid at a swimming pool.  Then the kid had turned into a more grown Abraham. I asked him to wait there while I went to get some tools to trim a toy with. Love you Abraham.

​14/11/2021  Was actually dreaming that I hadn’t seen Abraham for a while in a dream and then in the dream remembered that he had been in those dreams that I had just had but I had forgotten. One was to do with a road being raised, think the Stawell rupanyup one and a fence being built at the top of the road with a question about land having being gained by the landowner next to the road and the other about a backhoe and rubbish collecting but then when I woke couldn’t remember where he had been. But remember talking to him and somehow him dying that night had been reversed. Can’t get back into the dream much better than that.  But Hello Abraham.

​21/11/2021 Not sure what house we were in but Jo had put on excessive weight and I told that she had got to be a big lady.  Then Abraham was there probably mid teens and I was telling him how much we miss him and it was great to see him back.  Then he said I will show you how Abraham Lincoln hugged as if it had been just what I had been trying to work out with a smile on his face and then not sure but I thought this can’t be a dream it has to be real and of course I woke up. It was just so real and great to see you Abraham. Gawd I miss you.

​30/11/2021  Was sitting around playing cards with a group of friends. Kylie and Elsie were being very patient waiting for me and I was doing something else as well like cleaning a large hole for a septic tank. I came back to play a hand and Kylie and Elsie were saying things to the card players and Abraham said I heard last twice.  I thought there isn’t much point in you saying anything because no one will hear you. And then I woke up. Didn’t really see you Abraham but it was definitely you. Glad you are about. Appreciate that more than I can say. Truly do.

​05/12/2021  Think the dream was more about Abraham than Abraham in it.  Not sure.  You are just so much alive to me Abraham.

​15/12/2021  Can’t remember the dream greatly but think it was Christmas and Abraham had come back to life. Think I called him Rob but it was definitely Abraham. He was just waking up and I asked him something at some stage. Was surprised it was only a dream when I woke.

21/12/2021 Abraham made an appearance at the start of the video I am trying to make . Thanks Bram but probably won't put you there. But do hope to get back to work today.

05/01/2022  Was in a house somewhere in the Brunswick area in Melbourne.  Had been doing some repair work and was searching for a bottle of red wine to have with a couple before they left. Couldn't find one so I said “is that Sydney road just there” and went out to buy one.  Was having trouble finding one and started walking .  Then got a surprise when I saw Abraham walking towards me. Think he had some Maccas.  He didn’t notice me and I thought fancy seeing him here and said “hello Abraham” as we passed. He said “Hello” back without really recognizing me just thinking it was a stranger.  For some reason I presumed he was taxi driving and had just stopped for a bite and didn’t want to bother him too much.  Then he turned and started quizzically working out who had said hello to him. Think we then had a bit of a wave.  Thought he looks ok but his nose hair needs a trim but we each kept going a bit surprised to have randomly seen each other. When we were past each other I started screaming to myself at the memory of him trying to hang himself but was glad he is ok now,  Woke up and slowly realized I had seen Abraham in a dream. Hope you are ok mate. Great to see you.  Really is. Love you mate.

06/0/2021 John was asking me where the bike shed was. I told him I had moved it over to the other bus stop for Ned.  Then somehow I was talking with Abraham and he said he was going to buy me a Mondeo battery for Christmas. I was just being astounded at how he was surviving his grave and was wondering about the medical miracle of him being alive.  I said to him “do it with Kylie and Elsie” and he was leaving to do something and I said to him before he went “and Abraham you just look after yourself.” He then went on his way to do something with a smile on his face saying “I will”.  Woke up and realized it was a dream. Great to see you so happy Abraham. I love you. Just amazing when I see you in a dream. It really is.
Dozed back to sleep again. Next dream I was asking Abraham if he was going to ride his bike to the bus stop. We seemed to be living at the main farm and I was worried something might happen to him if he did.  Then I woke again. Love you mate.  Had a fierce debate with myself about just what dreams are and went back to sleep again. 

​12/01/2022 Funny dream. Sleeping somewhere is Melbourne, Was sharing a bed with a builder and got up to go work. Zoe was there and Jo cooking breakfast.  Thought Zoe will need a walk and, without being 100% positive now, saw Abraham and wondered if he could take her for a walk.  Bit vague on whether it was him or not. If it was good to see you mate.

​23/01/2022  In a house and Abraham was there probably Elsie as well. Things were normal and I was thinking how lucky we were to have Abraham with us even though he had died.  Love seeing you in a dream mate. Goodnight again. See you next time.

​25/01/2022  Just dozing off in the afternoon. Abraham was on a couch patting zoe.  Nodding I think.

​29/01/2022  Abraham entered a room where I was doing court cases or something. Was about 10 at one stage his hair turned white.  He was smiling. Dream almost vanished as I awoke. But definitely you Abraham. Good to see you.

31/01/2022 Was in Horsham with Kayla and Abraham. Kayla got in the front of the car and then Abraham suddenly wasn’t there. I concluded I was dreaming if Abraham had gone in such a manner so I looked for a paper to write the dream down on.  Found a Weekly Times and explained to Kayla what I was doing and said I am never sure about dreams.  Do  they just reflect what you have been doing while you are awake? She moved to sit close to me and I said you aren’t going to girlfriend me are you so she moved away and then I roughly wrote the dream down on the weekly times while telling Kayla I had never seen her in a dream before. Then I started driving and leaving the service station. It seemed more like Bay street port melbourne by then and I worried about bottoming the Mondeo as I went over a curve and woke up. As always great to see you Abraham even if it was only briefly. Love you forever mate. 

​23/02/2022  Abraham had survived and was going ok, Not sure of all the details but South Africa seemed to be involved. As always, great to see you, Bram.

​25/02/2022  Was ringing Abraham and then woke up.

01/034033  Jo and I were in bed and Abraham came by. I was so happy that he was alive but he had some sort of gravel rash on his head. I didn't know it was there but Jo did. I had been in late from driving sheep.  Was just so glad to see him alive and then was surprised it was only a dream when I woke up. As always Bram, great to see you. You didn’t seem to be overly bothered by the gravel rash. Cheers mate. Until next time.

​11/03/2022  Hadn’t realized it was Abraham until I said his name. He was traveling with my father on a ride on mower on the west side of the channel paddock as about a 4 year old. I was to take over and somehow his grand father got angry when he wasn’t going to go with him after he got off the mower.  I said Abraham is just a kid he doesn’t understand.  And woke up. Hope everything is ok Bram. As mentioned, didn’t realize it was you until I said your name.


19/09/2022 Not sure where it was but Abraham had survived his ordeal and was ok.  In actuality we are at Tarwin Lower and etc.  A lot of other dream after that.  Had to wait until morning to write it down.  The main thing great to see you Abraham.

​26/03/2022  After waking realized Abraham had been in a dream in passing. Can’t remember much about but it had the old survive the hanging element to it.  I live to see you in a dream mate.

​02/04/2022  Abraham was school starting age and was on my shoulders enrolling in a school in the middle east. The dream was about indoctrination and we were on a flight of stairs in a crowd. Earlier Abraham’s mother had said I dpn’t know why everyone is so attracted to you Abraham and that is when he went on my shoulders. Hope things are good mate. It all seems surreal.

​03/04/2022 We seem to be renting a place somewhere and Abraham was sitting on my knee aged about four I guess. I was saying or thinking this has to be real I can feel his weight on my knee. Then I tried to move a hand through him to further check the reality and that brought a tear to his eye and I apologized. Love you Abraham.

​12/04/2022 Not sure what the dream was. Woke suddenly. Think I hit Abraham on the backside with a tennis racquet in some sort of game. If I did, sorry Abraham. Love you deeply.

​14/04/2022 Can’t remember the dream all that well but Abraham was definitely there as a survivor of his night of dying. We seemed to be at the 170 acres of McPhersons. There seemed to be police investigating something and a hole in the ground with something burning in it. Really can’t remember it all but Abraham was definitely in it walking around doing something,  He was about 16 and wearing colorful clothes. Love seeing you mate.

​17/04/2022   Abraham was in his last year of primary school. I was watching and thinking of the driving around in the coming years when he came over to me and said he was very proud of something he had written down but there was some woodwork he needed to get better.  Hope things are good mate.

​28/04/2022.  Went back to a paddock to pick up my dog Frank. Started to be upset with myself because he wasn’t there. I had more of a paddock plowed the previous day than I realized. But was thinking to myself I will never see Frank again he has gone away. Then he was there with our current dog zoe and then Abraham was there as well with a simple minded chap who I didn’t know. I asked if he thought I would come back and if I had forgotten them and if he had been cold during the night. He just showed how they had used each others body heat to stay warm and didn’t seem worried.  Great to see you Abraham. Wonder about you a lot. Until next time. Love you mate.

25/025/2022  Can’t remember it well. Think Abraham wasn’t keen on getting out of bed. Did not like me disturbing him or something. Had short hair. Sorry about disturbing you Abraham but love seeing you in dreams.  Forever mate. Miss you and really love seeing you.

​29/05/2022 Abraham and I were in Horsham in the red car. We were going around to the school where he was doing his apprenticeship. The car in front didn’t move at an intersection and I had to get out to get something off the road. Abraham must have taken over the driving to clear the intersection but then kept going in the flow of traffic and I was left behind.  Went to the school to find him but he wasn’t there.  Eventually did find him and growled at him for leaving me behind but was happy enough that it all sorted out.  He had an explanation for it all.  As always Abraham, great to see you and hope you are going ok.

​14/06/2020  I was on a train with Abraham probably going from Murtoa to Wal Wal.  There was a happy girl on it. I got off with a bike and had flat tyres. Pumped them up and the girl started talking. She had just got her year 12 marks and passed.  I said you will know Abraham and said he had two older sisters who went there as well.  One of the bike tyres was still flat. On waking I realized that Abraham had been in the dream.  Not sure what the dream was all about but truly great to see you Abraham. Love you forever!

04/07/2022  Would be hard to get the whole dream written down. But it was so Abraham evidently still with Kayla.  Something was being paid and we were waiting for the transaction to go through a machine.  A school teacher looked at the read out after it was half stuck and said Kayla is an alcoholic. I asked Abrham about her drinking and he said how much she drinks but not a lot while she is driving. Then I became emotional saying if only we could get you another girl friend thinking of how he had once tried to take his own life because of her. The overriding memory of the dream was that it was exactly Abraham in mannerism and responsible attitude towards the girl.  Truly hope you are going ok Abraham.  For whatever it is worth, love it when I see you.  

​18/072022  Wasn’t in deep sleep.  Kylie was doing something and then someone else was coming. Realized it was Abraham and woke up. Not sure of context beyond that but it was wonderful to see you Abraham.  Until next time. Deeply love you.

​20/08/2022 Dream was mainly about me explaining the the tides.  Abraham was there at one stage and said to him I can’t let you out of my sight.  Was disturbed about him trying to hang himself but because he was alive wanted to make sure I looked after him. May not have been a dream all fair on you Abraham but great to see you. Gee I miss you. Until next time your father does love you.

​28/08/2022 Elsie had been investigating Jeff Ackers and I was thinking what a good girl she is.  Then Jo came past me saying she could smell cooking. Went past me and opened a door. Abraham was in there. He was fairly young.  She gave him a smack and came out a little angry. I was a little surprised. Do not know what it was all about but good to see them getting close. Love you Bram.

​04/09/2022  Jo was getting a young man, about 5, ready for school at the Wal Wal house where I grew up. I didn’t realize it was Abraham but asked him “Abraham how long since you saw your father” thinking it was someone called Bradley Knight who used to live at the house down the road. He answered I have been wondering where he is myself. It was only when waking up that I realized it was Abraham nad I definitely said Abraham in the dream,  100% sure it was you Abraham. Great to see you. Truly love you.

12/09/2022  Was playing solitaire. Without being 100% sure, Abraham materialized as a black jack on the second row from the left,  If it was you, Abraham, great to see you.

07/10/2022  Not sure where we were, Leesa Drum was visiting Kylie.  She left then came back worried she had squashed something. Sge and Kylie and Abraham were sitting close and Abraham was being cheeky to her. Think I had been dreaming about original matter.  How one dimension becoming a second dimension was a beginning of a particle. There was mention of some one Loats. Anyway been a while Abraham hope everything is ok.  Love seeing you, mate. The years are going by. Truly love you and your existence forever.

​19/10/2022   Was in a plush shopping mall  somewhere. I woke up to tell someone that I couldn't afford anything,  Then I saw Abraham and told him how worried I had been that something had happened to him. He was quite grown up and gave an Abraham smile.  Just so good to see you mate. It was truly you. You looked so well.  Love you forever,

​20/10/2022  Not someone I positively identified as Abraham but not sure who else it would be.  Who was going somewhere, not sure where but it looked serious, and I called him over and said “always remember that your father thinks you are a good son, now go and live the rest of your life.”
​Later on another dream. Abraham and Elsie were primary school age.  It was over at the Wal Wal farm. I was getting them ready to go to school. I made Abraham some toast but it was burnt and it didn’t worry him. There was a dog trying to catch a chook involved as well. Interesting.  Hope all is well Mr Abraham. It was a higgledy piggedly dream. Love you dearly.
Later on again. Abraham was young and at Maher’s old house outside the back porch. He had his hair shaved short to the ear level.  I asked him if he was having any troubles in his life. He replied that he would have to have a look.  Thanks for being there Abraham. Three dreams in a night. Always looking forward to seeing you. It is as if things are regular.

​26/10/2022  Didn’t get up to write the dream down.  Think I just asked you if you were ok.  Hello Mr Abraham, anyway.  Love you dearly. See you next time.

​29/10/2022  There was a beauty contest somewhere. Kylie said something. Abraham was there. Most of the dream was about other stuff.  The feeling I can’t describe. Love you mate.

​02/11/2022  Abraham was in bed about 14 or 15.  I asked how he was and he was upset.  He had survived after all and asked what was wrong what have I done or haven’t done. I know I haven’t been a very good father I said.  I pulled the blankets off him and he tears in his eye.  I then woke up.  Hope I can comfort you Abraham.  First time I have seen you like that in a dream I think.  Oh Brammy I love you.

In the short term with mother working they have allowed me $40,000 per annum. hope that is after tax free.  Some money goes into super and hopefully I get a 22000 pension from that in a few years time.  They have allowed 1 million for you daughteries to buy property.  Half a mil each. 250,000 gift 250000 you have to reimburse me for in some way or other.
With yours Elsie in the short term we know we can get 4%.  Meaning term deposit Bendigo for 12 months you make 10,000 and I make 10,000.  As soon as you want the whole 500,000 you have to start paying me reimbursement.  The longer you leave things the less value your money will have. In 5 years time that 500,000 will only but what 400,000 does today.
Kylie can start to think. Buy a 3 bedroom together makes sense. Problem Kylie only takes herself seriously.

​24/11/2022 There was a caravan involved probably Kylie and Elsie were inside. I went outside and Abraham was there, I lifted him up by one leg and squeezed it, Something like that. Anyway he smiled. Just so great to see you again Mr Abraham.  Can’t describe how happy it has made me. Love you and see you next time.
25/11/2022 I had been driving the yellow truck down the Wal Wal road.  Then I was home somewhere. Elsie was running around and brought me a coffee, Then Abraham was there in a dressing gown. I asked him if he wanted some coffee and if he was going to school. He answered no he had to go tomorrow. I was surprised because tomorrow was Saturday.  Whatever that was all about great to see you Mr Abraham.  Love you forever.

​06/12/2022  Not sure of the full content,  There was a lot of Abraham in it. In the end we were out at Minnerboro Stawell road corner waiting to see if Peter Deutcher would come by to take us fishing over the back of Wal Wal. He had said he would but we weren’t sure if he would remember or not.  Earlier I had been asking Abraham if he ever gets so lonely  to come to his father. Think John Kingston had been in it earlier as well. Was so surprised to wake up in the middle of the night and find it was only a dream. So great to see you Abraham. Truly was. Love you Love you.

​18/12/2022  Was taking Mark Fontana to Horsham to drop him off.  Thought something about Kayla and saw Abraham standing somewhere and woke up.  Hello Abraham. Cheers and love you

​27/12/2022  Not sure where we were but there was a few people about Elsie and probably Kylie was there and Abraham joined in with Elsie dancing and jumping around. I went over to him and said you are yourself Abraham. Had seen Frank my dog earlier.  Love you both.

​09/01/2023 I got home and said Abraham is here, He then offered a handshake and after shaking I said I am not going to stop looking at you in case you vanish.  He was was about 15.  The we went into a room and Adam Birch was there playing chess with someone. Adam was in his twenties and said something about this is my best friend to the chess player when we arrived,  Great to see you Abraham.  Happy new year to you and love you forever.

15/01/2022  There had been a few crocodiles in the dream.  Then Jo came in and then the girls and Abraham was with them.  Rob was there as well.  Think I  said you know Abraham is there and I woke up.  Something like that, Wish I was still asleep seeing you Abraham. Love seeing you, Cheers mate.

20/01/2023  Dad was alive and telling me he had cancer  and was going to die.  I was wondering how to explain to him that he had already died.  And that evidently he and Abraham die and come back to life.  Then Abrham was explaining his experience.  It was New Zealand food or something that had got him going.  Don’t really remember the dream all that well.  It had concentrated on my father.  Anyway cheers Bram.  You were definitely there.  Love you forever.

​9/02/2023 Wish I could remember it better. Abraham was happy about 12  through to about 16 playing with a lot of kids and doing all sorts of things. I remarked to myself how much I hate that girl but was glad he was still with us.  It was somewhere around Stawell. Jo was in it. Just so good to see you Abraham Sorry for that remark if it was uncalled for,  Just feel so excited having seen you again.

​28/02/2023  Not sure what the dream was but woke snd realized Abraham had been it it.   Something about release the volten or something like that, Saw Frank the dog later on. Great to see both of you.  Hello Abraham. I love you. Cherish the times I see you in a dream.

​06/03/2023  I took a load of something to a place that was like Murtoa. There were students there. Abraham was one of them. I dropped off whatever I had to and then started fooling around with Abraham and asked him how he was going. He replied “shithouse I came third” It was in some race or other driving a car. Didn’t seem real concerned. Hope everything is ok mate. Think you were with Adam when I started fooling around with you.  Absolutely love you.

08/03/2023   Fell back to sleep before getting up. From memory was talking to Abraham and then when I said something about dead he went motionless.  Good to see you anyway mate. Until next time. Love you.  Wish I hadn’t fallen back to sleep.00

20/03/2023 We were up at wisers it was stripping an oat crop.  The comb was off,  Ray Kingston was there young, Abraham was there about the same age. I asked Abraham if he wanted to go home. He was looking pretty well I said so and asked him if anything bothered he now,  thinking to myself that its was remarkable that he was alive and looking so well.  Gee just so could to see you Abraham. Love you forever.

​10/04/23  What a dream.  Abraham appeared looking well.  He said to me and Stephen Matthews how he had met with some of his kindergarten friends and that they were going to try and learn football and Stephen you would like this I am going to try and learn full forward. Then later he wasn/t going to come home with me. He was going to stay the night with Glenn Tickner’s parents and they were going to take him to church next day and they had rung mother and arranged it all. I left and started thinking that I must have a talk with him and tell him he doesn’t have to play football if he doesn’t want. Probably haven’t done the dream justice, Just so good to see you Mister Abraham. I get so happy when I see you in a dream. Love you forever mate.

Later on think we were on a old chamberlain tractor. Jo and I I was holding Abraham he was young and think the girls were there as well.  We crossed probably the Dunmunkle creek and I said there is a wombat.  The wombat turned into a prehistoric looking animal about the same size and had offspring with it. I handed Abraham to Jo and said you look after him and hopped off the tractor with the intention of providing protection or something.  The animal just wanted its tummy scratched and the younger ones said they were not going to breed because of something to do with the countdown. Good to see you the second time Mr Abraham. Gosh it really was. Love you forever mate.

12/04/2023   We were relaxing on a beach or somewhere, Elsie and Abraham were together. A man approached them wanting to take their photo. I asked Abraham if he was ok thinking that he died but was all good now. He said yes.  Later I wanted some keys to go to a toilet. Think it was Abraham who gave them to me. As always mate, great to see you. Have been debating with myself whether it is really you or all my subconscious. Have to be you wouldn’t it. Anyway love you forever. Nice dream anyway. cheers.

​13/04/2023  Happy 23rd birthday Mr Abraham. Anyway You and I and mother were somewhere in a apartment building. There was a knock on the door. A girl was at the door. She had tattoos on her arms.  Looked a bit like Alana. Not sure if it was her or not. Without a word you ran off with her a smile on your face without saying goodbye. I said to mother I don’t know if it’s just sex or there is love. Enough said.

17/04/2023  Someone came in and asked Abraham a question to do with last year. He answered “Fruit” and they both laughed. I asked Abraham what was funny and he said when you make a joke you say fruit. Something like that. I still don’t get it but hello Abraham. Always great to see you.  Love you forever. Funny boy.

​11/05/2023  Had a glimpse of Abraham. Elsie was there. Woke up. Hope all is well mate. 

​31/05/2023   Hard to remember. I had to ask Abraham if I could drive his trotter as I knew how to get it to win. Been a while mate but as always love you.  Bit vague on the dream in total.

6/06/2023  We were at Riachella. I thought Jo was snoring. I thought Abraham was snoring. It was owls on the roof.  They became the dominant part of the dream but you were in it Abraham. What was it all about. Gees I love you.

17/06/2023 Sorry Abraham. Didn't get up. Too tired. But had 2 dreams. Sketchy on the details of both. Try and do better next time. Love you mate.
22/06/2023  I couldn’t believe I was seeing him but there he was and something was funny. He extrapolated on what would have happened if we had gone to Melbourne and it was amusing to him. Think something about Marla Neal was the source and where we would have all stayed. Great to see to you in a dream Mr Abraham. Until next time, all the best and love you forever. Cheers mate
03/07/2023  Was recounting a dream about a tall American Negro basketballer and suddenly remembered with close to certainty that Abraham had been in it quite earlier driving a car. John and Aunty Dorothy were probably also there and giving driving lessons. Something like that. Cheers Bram. See you next time. Love from Dad.
20/07/2023  Abraham was being asked if he liked a certain place. He and Elsie were discussing. I reminded that was he had died but somehow was alive. That didn’t seem to bother him much. He was alive and happy. Something like that. Really great to see you Mister Abraham. Love you forever.

​01/08/2023 I was doing an equation or something. Then Abraham was there helping. The main thing I remember is saying to Abraham you seem pretty happy mate. Think he agreed. So good to see you anyway Abraham. Love you forever

20/08/2023   Abraham had survived trying to take his life but wasn’t happy in life and I was very distressed about his unhappiness and his future,  Good to see you Bram just hope everything is ok. Love you mate.  Not sure of all the details but involved Stawell and Wal Wal.

20/08/2023   Abraham went to a cupboard to talk on the phone. It was very noisy and I shouted can you turn that thing down a bit, I was talking to Ivan Dingwall and Jeff Ackers was there as well I think. Then I went to the cupboard and he wasn’t there.  I realized I must be dreaming and set off to get my computer and write it down, Much happened in that next bit. Never got the dream written down but ended up walking down the Stawell Campbells Bridge road with Jeff and Tony Hunt. They were walking slowly so I passed then Jeff caught me up. And I woke up.  What am I to make of it all Abraham. Love you forever,


2/09/2023   Abraham was quite young and said ‘Father can we buy one of those pool scooper things”  I offered him a hearth brush half full of sand  that I was playing with,.  Not sure if I said it in the dream or as I woke up but it was what a dear little boy Abraham is.  I truly love you mate. Sorry for having my distraught moments here and there. Until next time.

03/09/2023  Didn’t get up to write it down. John and I were walking across a paddock to catch an aeroplane to New Zealand. Abraham was with us. More to it that but thanks Abraham.  Love seeing you in a dream.

06/09/2023  We were at beach town think esperance WA we all there with an addition. A second Abraham. Just a little younger. Don't really remember it all. Earlier was being a failing taxi driver wondering how I was going to take care of Abraham. Good to see you mate. Until next time love you.

4/09/2023  The kids were about Kylie 7 elsie 5 and Abraham 3. We were in a new house in Riachella. Jo was there at one stage.  Everyone was pretty happy and I decided I must be having a dream while wide awake. All a bit silly on my part but great to see you Abraham. Was stunned as I woke up. Love you mate.

03/10/2023  Was dreaming about making a video. When back to it and think Abraham was there. Wasn’t sure that it was him. If it wasn’t do not know who it would be. All the best Bram. Hope it was you. Love from dad.​

04/10/2023  Couldn’t remember the dream details upon waking. But Abraham was definitely there and there was something about him surviving that night. Good to see you mate. Love you forever.

10/10/2023  Abraham was everywhere,  Seemed to be over at the Wal Wal House. Saw him at least three times. All happy. Love you mate.

​18/10/2023  Possibly saw you a few times last night. If it was you, you were hitting your mother and not in a very good mood. Hope everything is ok. Love George see you forever hope I am not being mean to you am I

4/11/2023  Without it being ab absolutely positive identification, Abraham was doing something about the shadow of a spider or something on a wall. If it was you good to see you again Mr Abraham. Love you as always

​10/11/2023. Abraham and Queensland were involved. Not a 100% identification but close. Forever mate. This life after death  thing has me intrigued.

12/11/2023  Elsie and Abraham were walking in town somewhere. I was driving and made a detour to say hello to them. They were youngish about 11 and 9. Great to see you positively Mr Abraham.  It was a thrill. Love you for ever.

27/11/2023  Abraham survived that night. Everyone thought he had died but he came out of his coffin and was fine.  Not much else to put. Gosh it was a happy dream.  Love you mate. He was in a bed nearby seeming restless. I asked him if he was ok. He said yes just stretching.



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