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backwards calendar
In old history, Socrates said something like democracy is no good without people having access to the best available knowledge.
Ballot boxes are currently ignorant about the motion of the sun and its inverse square law.
Better planetary motion and tidal knowledge permeating education is not going to stop earthquakes and hurricanes and viruses and asteroids or calamities like those. On the other hand, Copernicus, Galileo and Kepler would hardly wish their fixed sun mistake to be an ongoing part of democratic reckonings.
Currently we live count up calendars. A count down calendar gives perspective of where we are going. Sets the goal of getting there.
Sound academics work out when the next major planetary alignment is due. Plausibly that is 472 years in front of us. Call that year zero. Next year would not be 2021 A.D. Next year would be 471 Pre Alignment. The one after that 470 Pre Alignment. The planet gets younger as its citizens get older. Better fun. Or stick to religious calendars and fight wars and they sort of decided destiny.
More so than the stars, the constantly changing heights of oceans are our first base glance at the rest of the universe.
Dreams that have happened. First known one Sook Chin in Penang before the funeral. In her dream she saw Abraham and asked him why he had done what he did. He then left.
With me voice says “He is hiding behind John” (first week or so)
A few days later John’s landcruiser backwards parked at the trough. See Abraham in new house. The door wrongly faces north. I put my arms around Abraham and say with great emotion “I can touch you”.
When at Concongella:- was driving a taxi. Having trouble getting elderly passengers to tabaret. Start wailing “I shouldn’t be driving taxis, my son took his own life two months ago”. We aren’t in a taxi. I walk and carry them to tabaret. Afterwards I couldn't find taxi. Search for it. Take a call. Say Stawell taxis. It’s Veronica the taxi owner. I tell her I have lost the taxi. She says don’t worry about it the police are onto it or something. Go to your Stawell house. I tell her Ambulance victoria still have it. Then she says go to some other house Jo will take care of it. Jo Smith a former taxi driver is at this other house with daughters Kylie and Elsie. Kylie and Elsie are relaxing. I offer them a sandwich. Then Abraham is there I say I'll have to find another sandwich. There is a sudden realization of events at least on my side. Our eyes meet both with the realization that we are seeing each other after he has died. He looks a little bashful. The four us us, Kylie Elsie Abraham and I leave in the green car. I wake in Concongella just so thrilled to have seen Abraham in context of life as it is and tell Jo (Kingston) in the morning.
A little later at Concongella :- the whole family was together somewhere or other with Abraham saying he might come and go a bit.
IN Stawell. In a car. I take a video with my phone and send it to Elsie. It comes out with Abraham and I viewed in the left hand side mirror of the car with our cheeks against each others.
In Kota Kinabalu Borneo when dream happens. Abraham hops in land cruiser outside Stawell football ground to drive away. Looks like he knows what he is doing. Later in day relate dream to Gift hotel after his funeral. We (kylie) actually had trouble driving away from about where he did with no trouble (in the dream).
Me driving a taxi in stawell. Its Sunday. See a lot of taxis queued up on the corner of main and wimmera on the old mitre 10 side. Abraham in the front one. I turn around the corner and pick up Peter Campbell in the main street outside some function. He is drunk and wants to go 201 class street Concongella. I try to use a Melways as the internet to find it and struggle. Only remember it was Abraham in front cab after I wake up. Mild surprise not so much to see him, but see him as a taxi driver.
Talking to a policeman about Abraham and him being suicidal and having taken his life. We go up a down escalator. I get angry when the policemen seems to dismiss a switch of a girl to lesbianism as his unsolvable problem. Policemen shakes his head and says he wasn’t dismissive. Us with this struggle up this down escalator is the one way relationship happening he explains.
17/10/2019 Vague as waking up. Said to myself (awake) that’s Abraham. Tracey Barber had somehow put a picture of him in front of me. He was happy and had his hair at the longer length.
18/10/2019 somehow Abraham was born again and Elsie had got rid of her grown up self and was a baby again. There was a van outside our stawell house and Jo said ‘My boy is here’.
25/10/2019 Abraham had left school. I was going to go to Murtoa and say he was doing his apprenticeship. Seemed to be Lubeck and a bit of plumbing fittings needed.
28/10/2019 complicated. Didn't see Abraham. Something about stairs being built out of his grave. Can't recall details
29/10/2019 Caught Adam and Abraham fooling around looking like hanging themselves. They said they were only doing it because they knew I would catch them. Woke up unimpressed. As a dream suppose it was ok. Good to see Abraham and Adam together.
1/11/2019 Didn’t see Abraham but was on the phone to insurance or someone about him being in Queensland and someone had gone through a red light and crashed into his car. Something like that.
17/11/2019. Abraham was a toddler. We were in a bookshop or shop similar. Abraham was being friendly with a youngster younger than him. Both were very happy. I was worried he would make the younger one cry and the mother would come running back from another part of the store. That didn’t happen. They were both happy.
6/12/2019 Didn’t see Abraham. Was going to his school to see how he had settled down after some incident or other. Was talking to a teacher when suddenly remembered he had died a fortnight before. The teacher didn’t know. Then seemed to get lost and had put my wallet down in someone’s house. Woke with my father driving and we are approaching the Stawell cemetery although it didn’t look exactly like the Stawell cemetery.
15/12/2019 Vague in middle of night. Think Abraham was there. A car rolled down a hill. Minor damage when another was hit. John seemed to be there the most. Very vague and unsure of dream.
21/12/2019 Was riding a motorbike. Had a pillion passenger. It was Abraham. He had his white shirt on and was particularly close. I thought if he wants to be that close it's not bothering me but he doesn’t have to be. Or something like that. Then he was half around in front of me asking if it was ok if he had some more funds. More or less woke up then unsure if it was fun or funds but probably funds. Pretty sure I answered in the affirmative in the dream although I definitely did when I woke. Initially when waking just a little annoyed that it was only a dream and that is the way it is. But that didn’t last long.
22/12/2019 Same annoyance again upon waking. Can only see Abraham in a dream. But still. Remember it all pretty well. John Steele and Adrian Tyler had been in it to do with wood and little motors and John having been paid a million dollars for something to do with the Melbourne cup. Then Abraham was driving not sure what car. He passed John Kingston riding a push bike. There was something about boiling eggs. It was at John’s place. When Abraham got back he was in a caravan in front of Dad’s old house. I went crook at him for accelerating like that said there was no need for it. He said well things are different Mother has Monday and Tuesday off. Woke up with a lot of mixed feelings but he looked pretty relaxed driving the car the way he was. Good on you Bram. Reckon it was fun and not funds in previous night’s dream. You so much seemed your normal self. Seeing you in dreams seems pedestrian and mundane compared to the high emotion of grieving. But it’s good.
26/12/2019 Very unsure if it was Abraham. Might have seen him somewhere around the police station corner in Rupanyup. Woke up unsure if it was him or not.
01/01/2020 Dozing off in afternoon. Saw Abraham not sure of dream. Wasn’t deep sleep.
02/01/2020 pretty vague. Something to do with all John’s nephews needing the green car to get to what I presume was Abraham’s funeral.
06/01/2020 Bit vague on details. There were lions and other jungle cats in the kitchen at Wal Wal. Think my mother and father were there. When I awoke remembered Abraham, probably early to mid teens was sitting among them. Think Kylie and Elsie were there and they were going to catch an aeroplane probably to Western Australia. My mother asking them to take a yard for probably our pet dog. Abraham had a bunch of a green leafy vegetable in his hands and I only saw him after all the jungle cats parted and moved away,. None of the lions were being vicious. Friendly. Interesting dream.
26/01/2020 Was driving between some paddocks not sure where but seemed to own them. Probably Wal Wal area. Abraham said it was black soil. I said it wasn’t. Some of it might look black from a fire. Black soil was more like where Samuel Matthews lives. Woke up realizing it was Abraham. Hello Bram. Good to see you.
02/02 Complicated lead up in dream. Stephen Matthews and car were involved. I had sheep at John’s place and had them locked in around Dads house. John must have come home and opened the cattle ramp gate. I went down to his place to tell him. Two of the kids were there. Elsie was saying she is ready to start painting the car. I said sanding and all and she said yes. I was just lamenting that it is only two kids these days then suddenly realized Kylie was the one missing . Abraham was there. He was in a school uniform. When I said so good to see you he got up and moved about happy and very much his normal self. Then the dream ended with the alarm going off. Taxi day. Amazing that it just went off as I was seeing Abraham.It was a good dream. Abraham had a blue uniform on and was about 15. Might have got younger as he moved about, he was definitely happy.
Complicated. I was holding Abraham thinking it was his brother. Probably. He was about 1 to 2 years old. I asked him if he knew where Abraham was and he said “dead”. Then the dream moved on and I realized it had been Abraham I had been holding in a dream and I wanted to get home quickly to record the dream before I forgot it.
Seemed to be Riachella I was trying to get to and it was arduous. A farm argument about money being spent and a need to split the place and all sorts of things. Sciatic pain woke me and I realized it had all been a dream. Hope everything is ok Bram. You can see your father is a bit mixed up. Living in Stawell for a start and being involved with the farm is way behind. But I have been wishing for you a lot. All the best.
11/02/2020 Just as drifting off into a dream saw Abraham and Elsie together both happy. Abraham invigorated and in a colorful shirt. Suddenly didn’t continue into sleep and realized it was Abraham. Almost first thing thought of when waking in the morning.
13/02/2020 There was a school trip. I was part of it. We hadn’t got far and Abraham was on the bus dead. Sitting in a seat. We got to wherever and a teacher told me he wasn’t dead at all. He was ok. I hugged her and said it was the second time we had thought he was dead. Then all the kids were painting a building white inside and out. Abraham had a six inch brush and was doing the outside. He was going well painting evenly without drips. Then we got back to where ever and Abraham was putting on his shoes. He had some hairs on his legs but not a lot. He was happy and I thought I heard him swear as he looked up to get on with something else. Then I was taking a phone call. Evidently there had been a complaint about the trip and someone wanted to talk to the principal. When I awoke first thought was Abraham is alive. Gee you felt alive as i woke.
19/02/2020 Didn’t actually see Abraham. Was discussing what sort of car he wanted when he got back. I was going to price a new one. It was Astra I said in the dream but the actual car I was dreaming about was a Mondeo. Was wondering about a manual or not and got confused about Kylie having it for a while before Abraham got back if it was a manual.
22/03/2020 Didn’t strongly see Abraham. Middle of the night but seemed to keep waking up and going back to the dream. It was to do with bendigo. And me making sure Abraham knew Newton’s third law.
26/02/2020 Had been here there and everywhere. Think I was in the old straw shed or something like the old shed that was removed years ago. Turned and saw Abraham. Asked if I could give him a hug. He said ok and we hugged considerably. Not sure what happened then. But remember being up in old lounge room with it changed a little but not much. Good to see you mate. Not sure of all of the dream except the part of seeing you. Hope everything is ok. On the calendar a year since your funeral day. Would have to presume that you are worried about your father? Does that make sense? Without wanting to burden you, really would like to talk.
06/03/2020 Had two dreams both centred on Abraham having been revived after all by our resusative work on the night. The first can’t remember much of. Elected not to get up and record it. The next about an hour later. We were at Riachella living in a shack and it seemed to be more where the tennis courts are. Perhaps. Someone from Nhill was there talking a bit. Kylie was over in the house cooking. Remember it seemed a bit strange that I could hear Stephen Matthews laughing away and telling her how much he liked dogs. Particularly big ones. In the first dream Elsie was quite present. In the second one I was talking to Abraham about something and started saying how much we thought you had died that night and asked if he would like to know how much we had worked to get him going and that we thought we hadn’t but here he was. He gave a smile and pointed a thumb up and then down to the prospect of being told. Then he gave me a hug and it was beautiful. Remember from the first dream not getting up because he was going ok and that was the main thing and I did need sleep as working tomorrow. Thankyou Abraham.
18/03/2020 Was driving towards the railway crossing at the Wal Wal hall. Abraham was with me. Told him I love you and explained I was saying it because of his accident. Or something. In the dream he seemed to have very much survived dying. Always good to see you Abraham. The dream would seem to be a link between Abraham and Mum.
25/03/2020 Mainly remember the dialogue. At some building or other. May have been Murray Mcgregor's woolshed not sure. Abraham said to someone we are mainly watching the cricket anyway to someone nearby. I presumed he meant at school. My thought process went along the lines of he died last year but is hanging around with those he went to school with in his after life. So I said to him ‘do you know you died last year’. He just gave a smile and went on with whatever he was doing.
Something like that.
27/03/2020 I wasn’t going too well. Was in the brown torana and couldn’t stop it going backwards. Resolved if I am going to drive it I have to replace the brakes. Was in Stawell and had been at some function with a lot of young people and I was getting sick of it. I had gone back to school or something and it wasn’t working out. So I bailed out of that and went to where I was staying. It wasn’t all that salubrious. On the way walked past Brendan Fevola sitting in the left hand side of a car. Complimented him on how he had lost weight. Went inside this ghetto type of place and there was something moving. Realized it was Zoe our little dog. There was also a life like stuffed animal there. I asked Abraham if he thought it was real. He said yes and I showed him it wasn’t. Then I woke up. As I gathered my wits realized Abraham had been there. Interesting dream. Hope you are ok Bram. Love you.
01/04/2020 Abraham had a navy blue or black tee shirt and was suddenly sitting opposite me at a table, He had a smile as if to ask what is going on here. The lead up in the dream was probably to do with methods of dealing with the corona virus. Not sure. Saw Abraham and said “that;s Abraham’ and woke up. Had been thinking during the day how much Abraham and I would have a strong relationship during the lock down as it is known and how it would remove him from the issue he had. As always Abraham, excellent to see you.
4/04/2020 Was living all sorts of places. Because of some change of circumstances was thinking we would move back to Riachella. Seemed to be going back to the farm, Then realized couldn’t. Ray was now living there. So ok then I will live in Stawell and was thinking of buying a house. Then realized already have a house in Stawell we will stay here I can travel to the farm and then Abraham poked his head in through the laundry door with a smile on his face. He was wearing his favourite shirt I think. During the day before (not dream) had really been wanting his help in setting up a way of recording on my computer so as I can make a Newton physics wrong presentation. And have long been wishing we had moved in here way before. Always picture the room Elsie sleeps in as your room Abraham. Love you mate.
10/04/2020 Not sure. Didn’t get up to record it. May have been me preparing something for Abraham.
11/04/2020 Woke up with Elsie saying I still get upset. Not sure if it was in reference to Abraham or not.
12/04/2020 Abraham was there and supposed to be beyond communicating to. Standing like a statue and comatose. I kept saying Abraham and he would smile or move a bit . That went on for a while. Then he said everything works out in the end. Or something like that. It was an interesting dream. Very hard to describe. Like he was playing dead and couldn’t keep a straight face. Always good to see you mister Abraham. If my dreams are real, you are a character.
17/04/2020 Had been dreaming Essendon were kicking goal after goal and then was at the Stawell football ground. There was foot races taking place. Saw someone who looked Abraham in one racing well. Thought of how good it would be if it was him. But it couldn’t be because he wasn’t with us anymore. Then woke up and thought it was probably was him. In the dream a little bit younger Paul Brown of Murtoa had been running in one.
25/04/2020 Abraham was riding John’s old 28 inch bike at the gravel pit paddock. It had been cultivated a bit. I was surprised that the bike was still going and at how well Abraham was able to ride it in rough sandy conditions. Whenever he went passed me I said “how are you going mate” and he didn’t answer. Just rode past looking happy. Earlier think we had all been staying at a motel and he wasn’t keen on talking to me then either. Interesting. Some message in there somewhere. Always good to see you mate.
26/04/2020 Abraham was lying on his back on a board across the bath at Wal Wal. I checked to see if he was breathing and he was but alseep probably and had his face screwed up probably in annoyance. Always good to see you mate. Seeming as if you aren’t always pleased to see me. Not sure. Have to do what I have to do.
28/04/2020 Had fatherly concern about a growth on Abraham’s body. He said it didn’t really bother him and he had plans.
05/05/2020 Had been in a tunnel witnessing small nuclear explosions. Then went to a house that was being renovated. Abraham was there building with loudish music going. He was in a big room and I asked him if that was his room. He said yes. Think Elsie was there somewhere. Probably had an ensuite. Decent smile on his face. He was very active.Love you Bram.
Later (another dream) one of Kylie’s friends was talking to me about running and asthma. Abraham was nearby as a child. I tapped him and asked him how he was going. Then Elsie was in the car backing into a trailer using a reverse camera. It didn’t hook on but she kept going back pushing the trailer, probably with a boat on it. I surmised the coupling handle must need lifting up and was waving to her to stop. When I eventually got to the car think it was Abraham driving. Happy as usual.
08/05/2020 Was cleaning out a combine with a portable vacuum cleaner in preparation for a video conference. Can’t really remember all that but suddenly Abraham floated in personified. It was so real it was real. Wish I could do it more justice than that. There is a background as I am actually preparing a video link for this coming Sunday and I intend to send out invites on messenger after already putting it on whatsapp. And in the dream think I was doing the messenger part. Not sure but the suddiness of Abraham suddenly being there exactly as himself is unforgettable. Hello Abraham. The thing was you were the most grown up ever. Remarked you are actually twenty not long after waking.
16/05/2020 Was just falling asleep beginning to dream and Abraham was there. Nice smile on his face. Dream hadn’t really started. Could have been something about chess and Elsie. Not sure. That was a thrill.
17/5/2030 Similar to previous night probably saw Abraham walking with Stawell tech jumper on as I was falling asleep. Less certain than previous night but similar disposition if it was him.
20/05/2020 Not sure where it was. Abraham was probably about fifteen. He was doing something with a red air compressor. Could have been at ligar street in Stawell where my grandfather used to live. There were others about. Not sure who. I had to go and do something. Before Ieaving went to tell Abraham something about starting the air compressor up and hugged him and said several times “please don’t hang yourself” Then realized I was dreaming and went to write the dream down. It was on the dog’s tummy, the one he had scratched just before he died. The tummy was full of markings and the dog was unimpressed with me trying to find somewhere else on its body to write. Then I woke up. Something like that. Abraham was just a bit younger and being Abraham. Was just so good to see you Abraham. Sorry if I am being dramatic. Hope I am not impacting the progress of your afterlife in a negative way.
23/05/2020 Not sure how the dream got to where it did. Abraham had a large tin over his head. I took it off and said something like “don’t go back to that trouble you had last year. If you can’t talk to your parents, we will find someone you can talk to.
01/06/2020 I was doing something with a ratchet I coudn;t make work on a jet aeroplane that looked like it had been in a minor mishap. Think I was with my father and perhaps Peter Matthews. Abraham came walking by on his way from school by the look of it. Was about 13 and wasn’t taking much notice of what us adults were doing. I said hello Bramster. Then I woke up. Abraham it was just so good to see you.
02/07/2020 Was preparing to play a game of something like cards. Was going to score and was trying to improve handwriting as part of the preparation. It was between Abraham, Elsie and I and someone else. Possibly Beth. Benny Maher was sitting there and he was talking with Abraham and I about car types. I asked Benny if he knew Abraham. He said yes with a smile on his face and said “you killed him but here he is”. I nodded and said he will probably go now. And I woke up. As always Abraham, great to see you.
Well Abraham I have a new computer. Not a dream. Things seem to be going okay.
11/07/2020 Think was seeing Abraham a lot. I went over to him and asked him if he got lonely at all now that he is dead and asked him if he wanted to go for a walk. He said okay but he was going for one with Leo Rabl and my father. I said they mightn’t want me along so later. Then I woke up. Hope things are good mate. You seemed so normal and hadn’t or haven’t put on weight. Thanks for being you’
13/07/2020
All pretty vague. In the dream made some decisions that other people didn’t like and said you have to make your decisions and stand by them. Could have caused some disarray. Was thinking about the dream (awake) and suddenly remembered Abraham had been in it. Dogs were involved and I went into a dog yard (think) and that is when I saw Abraham and asked if he was ok. He turned or got up with a broad smile on his face and nodded in the affirmative. The dream went on for a bit and realized Abraham had been in it as I started recounting the other bits and pieces. There were many others in it. Jack Fontana for one at the end, And I think Mary Rabl earlier. Probably my mother and father. Abraham wasn’t central but as always, mate real good to see you.
16/07/2020 Didn’t see Abraham. Think I heard Beth say something he would be helping mark lambs over the road at Sharpley which was Deutchers paddock.
19/07/2020 Was in Stawell. Trying to find what house I lived in. It was up the north end of Stawell A weatherboard one. I had been riding my old blue car as a push bike and it was going well. Went inside. Pretty sure Jo was there. And Abraham was there as well with a smile on his face. I gave him a hug. He reciprocated. Thought to myself this is real, finished hugging and said “I am just going to watch what you do” He went over to a wall and looked like he was trying to get out through the wall and he probably did. At least I woke up then. As always excellent to see you Abraham. Except for perhaps from your father, you seem to be free. Love you.
25/07/2020 Think Jo and I were somewhere around the sweeping bend just out of Glenorchy. Not sure. Abraham was with us and I was saying to Jo “still don’t know why Abraham is here with us and he is not there to go to school” Not sure what age he was but he seemed to be turning into Zoe the dog. Or Zoe was just there. Not sure. I was about to say to him you know you hung yourself then I woke up. Something like that. Good on you Bram. Hope everything is ok.
Back to sleep and an hour later. Abraham was on the phone talking to someone. He was at a desk with his feet up. Think I said “how come you are here. Is this real . Am I dreaming” and I touched him and felt him and thought it must be real, Think Kylie was there as well. Then I asked him if he ever talks to Kayla. He shook his head quickly. Then I said how about Adam and he nodded quickly. Then I woke up. It was a dream. Even if it is only dreams, love seeing you Abraham.
31/07/2020 Abraham was in Melbourne. I was trying to ring him. Could hear his voice but he couldn’t hear me. Then remembered that his phone wasn’t working properly. Wanted to ask him if he was coming home, Somehow I had seen him just earlier (think). Wherever I was Kylie and probably Elsie were with me. Then Jo had walked in and she might have been the one who said give him a ring. Not sure. But Abraham was definitely there. Always good to see you Mister Abraham.
6/08/2020 Can’t really remember but Abraham was there a lot. Along the lines of how lucky we were to have Abraham alive. Wish I could remember it better.
7/08/2020 Didn’t see Abraham but dreamt I moved his grave site to Halls Gap. I was having trouble getting his phone number right for a start. But then I had enough digits. Something like that.
08/08/2020 Can’t really remember. Think it was more photos. It was about Abraham’s life overall and had a sad touch to it. Hope everything is ok Bram.
13/08/2020 Elsie and Kylie were happily playing in an orchard. Abraham was with them. I was looking on and was very careful not to disturb the scene as I knew Abraham was just visiting. Don’t think Kylie and Elsie were aware Abraham was there. I kept watching and Abraham was also there on a pole way above. Then the person on the pole kept changing. Sometimes it was a statue and at one stage I was there as myself up on it as I watched on from below. It was wondrous. Thank you Abraham. You are an excellent son.
17/08/2020 Abraham was at a table talking with his friends and was saying someone tries to start a conversation with him on the phone and he has to try and get out of it. Then Adam and I were away somewhere, He was trying to cook some meat. When that was organized Adam said some would be leaving from Stawell and some from somewhere else this week. I wanted to talk to Adam about what I see Abraham doing in my dreams but refrained when I realized Adam wouldn’t know what I was talking about because they were my dreams. Yet I was dreaming at the time.
21/08/2020 Didn’t see Abraham. Mentioned his name to my father (think) as per the quickest way to Stawell and the dispute Abraham and I had had back in the day and he seemed to be about as either a little dog or perhaps a hare. Something seemed adventurous about Abraham’s lot after all the waking up and drifting back to sleep. Hope so you are a fascinating son.
09/09/2020 Abraham was on a bed with Elsie. Elsie was probably in her teens. Abraham was about 1 to 2 years old and he could not have been happier. The tv was on, probably in a motel. Elsie was a little annoyed about something and turned the tv up and Abraham was beside himself with happiness. I said shake hands as in teaching him to shake hands and he was just pure entertainment with his happiness. Hope I can take heart from that dream mate.
22/09/2020 Abraham visited Jo and I while we were in bed somewhere. Said he had come to visit his boys. Not sure who his boys were but said he liked looking after them. I gave him a pat on the head and said that’s good. There was a fire going in a fireplace and Abraham said he lights it up after it dies down. Love seeing you mate.
23/09/2020 Elsie and Abraham were around the 8 to 10 year old mark. Perhaps a little younger. Somehow it was my parents old bed and I went to get something to roll on it. When I came back Elsie and Abraham were one at each end doing whatever and I wasn’t impressed because I still had something to do to make it even though they had made it up somehow. Then there was slicing cheese or something and it probably went on a bit, It was only after I woke up and went back through the dream that I realized Abraham was in it. There was lots of stuff in that dream. Good on you Abraham.
28/09/2020 Didn’t see Abraham but was walking towards his grave from the woollen mills end. Think I was supposed to be meeting others there but I was late. There was another funeral happening and I had to walk past it. I was carrying a green garden chair for some reason or other. Someone said ‘hello George’ as I walked by and only half recognized them. Hope things are ok mate. I am sticking to my just begun Wednesday afternoon visit schedule. Want order in my life.
30/09/2020 Once again didn’t see Abraham.Was driving a car with a trailer behind. Originally it had been a new set of portable sheep yards. Was in a car with my mother and father and other family members. Not sure who. I wanted to check to see if the lights on the trailer were working. No one else seemed keen on this. Eventually said we will visit Abraham and do it there. I said ‘it’s It was Wednesday morning and I am going to visit his grave site on Wednesday afternoon anyway’. To get there I drove past the edge of the house in Gertrude street where my grandparents had lived. Then I woke up. Interesting. Rather see you than do these visits to your grave site. Guess that was the Wednesday visit.
05/10/202 Abraham was riding a horse in a horse race. Think the horse won. The other jockeys were congratulating him anyway. One was Trevor Tyler. I ran over to shake his hand and he looked very stony faced. Concluded he was dead relative to the other jockeys and was doing a good job riding a horse. Hope you are alright mate. See you soon.
11/10/2-2- Not sure. Might have been a mistake Jo was in it. Don’t think Abraham was in it alive but not sure. Wish I could recall the dream.
Another dream later, no details again but everything seemed happy. I found an equation or something to work it out. There was happiness everywhere.
13/10/2020 I was with Abrham thinking of going to the USA and zeroed in on Kansas and asked him if he would like to come. He said there might be a problem there had been one with New Zealand. He seemed to turn into Rob as I woke up, In an earlier dream I had been in the Ligar street house which was deserted, Was with Kylie and Elsie. They had been trying to block up a window where the wind was rushing in, I thought of asking them if Abraham had been with them when they were here doing
it earlier and refrained when I realized Abraham had died. I was trying to block the wind as well and said I would come back later with a teck gun.
16/10/2020 Jo and I were active and I stopped because Abraham was there and I said it is a bit rude doing it in front of you. Think he was happier when I stopped. He didn’t want to watch anyway.. Something like that but it was definitely Abraham. Bit embarrassing all around.
19/10/2020 Was in a woolshed, sort of the Wal Wal one but sort of not. I was doing something with my sheep, And asked Abrham to do something with a dog. He vanished out of the back of the shed with the black dog and I asked him to not go there but go somewhere else. And then he was gone. John was there and I kept asking Abraham to come out. The funny part was I realized it was a dream and wanted to write it down in a spiral notebook that I thought was in the woolshed.One that I write all my dreams of Abraham down in. But John had thrown it out when he cleaned the woolshed out. I went to where he said he had thrown it but the dumpster was gone, tears started falling from my eyes behind a front end loader. And then woke up. Great to see you Abraham.
22/10/2020 Unsure of it all, Abraham was in a next room studying. I shouted out I love you Abraham in an anguish way and suddenly realized he would have heard me and decided to push on as nothing had happened as there was nothing I could do if he had heard his father’s anguish, Sorry about that Abraham. I was writing down the quadratic equation formula but it changed mistakenly as I was doing it and it was then in John’s handwriting, There was more of Abraham in the dream I think before the bit I could remember when I woke up.
Later was in a house somewhere in Stawell. Jo and I were in bed. Jo felt uncomfortable during intimacy and then Abraham left the room with a smile on his face.
26/10/2020 Saw a few people including my father. Had the land cruiser loaded up with stuff. Then I was digging a hole and said to Abraham “I am just an idiot” He was young and it was reference to the fact that I once had an intention of building an air compressor, I was cleaning up stuff from around the house at riachella that amounted to getting rid of stuff I had never used and how I had wasted time on pointless projects.
29/10/2020 Not sure how the dream went but Abraham lived through the previous but died of a poisoning. Before he died he was very much his normal self. However the dream went, good to see you Abraham.
05/11/2020 Not sure where we were. I was trying to find clothes to put on. Elsie was there and then Abraham came in dressed going about his business. There was more to it than that, can’t remember, perhaps something about a pipe. Think Elsie was in a bad mood because I couldn’t find my clothes. Hello anyway Abraham.
11/11/2020 Not sure how the dream went, But Abraham had taken his own life, I was wailing a lot but think he died happy. Can’t really remember it all. There was various Rupanyup people about and I had been painting an adjustable spanner for some reason or other,
19/11/2020 Didn’t see Abraham. Heard Jo in a mentioning him to someone in a supermarket in the context of kids growing up.
04/12/2020 May have seen Abraham on TV as I fell asleep. Not sure. As always Bram. A few weeks ago heard you aren’t coming back. Can only thank you for all the dreams mate. Truly love you.
05/12/2020 Had these funny augurs for unloading grain. Asked Abraham if he was right to help with one, He said ok. Something like that. And then woke up. All the best mate.
20/12/2020 Didn’t see Abraham. Dreamt I was getting a bed ready for him.
23/12/2020 Just as falling asleep and entering a dream, Abraham was with the girls in the living room. Looked pretty relaxed.
27/12/2020 Just falling asleep after waking up in the middle of the night. Elsie and Abraham each had one plug of a ear phone set in an ear. Elsie got up and moved away.
02/01/2021 No visible sign of Abraham but was given an envelope in a car park in Horsham by Alison King. It was wet but pulled out two letters. They were dry somehow. Recognized the handwriting distinctively as being from mother and father. Woke up thinking of Abraham.
04/01/2021 Was dozing off in the afternoon. Beginning of the dream Jo was carrying Abraham. Woke up surprised.
07/01/2021 Not sure of dream, It went on bit but had been in a room where Abraham had been doing art work. There was a mural he had made.
11/01/2021. My father and Lyndall from South Australia came back from down the paddock. Abraham was with them. About 15 and looking wistfully interested. I got confused as I was counting three children and thought there were only two now. My mother started saying things have to change around here and I informed her I will leave and was about to set off to finish my project in the car in outback NSW or something.
14/01/2021 Was just dozing off in the afternoon. Can’t really remember the dream but Abraham was jumping and moving somewhere as I suddenly awoke. Pretty sure there was more of him prior to that.
15/01/2021 Abraham was suddenly there looking around for something, Not sure what or where. Indoors though would say. Looked busy and knowing of what he was doing.
25/01/2021 Went next door to discard some clothes at a neighbours recycle skip. His place was locked so couldn’t. When I got back Kylie and Elsie were on some steps in front of a house. They were grown up but at their feet was a little boy. It looked like Abraham as a young boy. I kept looking to make sure. Think his head came off and then went back on. Hope you are ok mate.
29/01/2021 Dozing off in afternoon. Woke with a start when I realized Abraham was in the dream. Sketchy on details. He was walking past someone and gave them a tap on the leg.
30/01/2021 Abraham and Kylie as youngsters were being held hostage by some unstable bloke with a gun in a flat. He ran away and Abraham was ok, Think Kylie as well. Funny dream. It was mostly about the unstable bloke.
03/02/2021 Was in Tasmania visiting a dam. John was there with a (probably) a tourist guide. As we left Abraham was walking with us as a 17 year old. Somehow he had carved out a different life. Good to see you again Abraham.
05/022021 Not sure of all the details but Abraham had been in it at one point. He was building something and I told him it was going to be ok because I believed in him. Seemed happy. There were a lot of others in the dream. Complex one but Abraham was fine.
08/03/2020 Was on a small island just off the coast of a larger one. There were kangaroos and koalas on it but it was very small. The tide must have risen and suddenly Abraham and Elsie were there as youngsters. About 8 and 6. I said we will have to go back in and asked Abraham if he could swim. He said he could but he started having trouble on the way and I carried him back to a larger island. Love you Abraham. Hope you are ok. Love seeing you. Things ended ok.
16/02/2021 Not sure. Was driving to W.Australia. Drove up a steep incline. Think Abraham was there. Think he walked around the edge of the road where it wasn’t so steep. I went back for a cup of coffee that I had left sitting on the edge. The dream had been a while before I woke up.
22/02/2021 Had been walking down a road with Peter Matthews. Had been up in his area to pick up a field bin. Then was home in bed with Jo. Abraham was nearby in another bed. Jo was laughing and started getting dressed. Abraham was looking away as she did to make sure he did not see her without her clothes on. Good to see you as always Abraham.
27/02/2021 We had just moved into a house at a Riachella. Jo and I. People were leaving welcoming gifts. John Hemley was one. Then Abraham was there. He was taller than me. I asked him if he wanted to go back to sleeping on his own and asked him if I could give him a hug. He said ok. We embraced and I told him I loved him. He asked me if I did right through. I said every bit of you. Then I woke up. As always mate, hope everything is ok. Apologize for anything I do wrong.
01/03/2021 Abraham was young and I was lying on my back holding him above me, probably outside an airport. He said he was going to help me with all that mental arithmetic. Lots of other stuff in the dream. Too hard to describe. Thanks Abraham.
06/03/2021 There was a lot of Abraham and only Abraham it seemed. Think it was anti war. Very hard to detail. Love you mate.
12/03/2021 There were windscreen wiper motors being bought for cars. Pretty sure it was Abraham in the dream. I asked “do you know how it fits”. The answer was “not really”. And I woke up. If it was you, good to see you mate.
28/03/2021 Not sure of it all. It was just a phone call and Abraham’s name was mentioned. Been in an accident. The call was about whether other cars were involved or not. Hope things are ok mate.
30/03/2021 I was sitting on a truck roof in a shed reaching and doing something. Abraham was there with me wearing a blue t shirt and shorts. I asked him if it bothered him that he had hung himself and was not living life out to old age. He answered with a wry look on his face. Think the answer was along the lines of have to think about that. Not sure. But he had a smile on his face. Then he was gone and I started to rush to a house to write the dream down because I knew I would be having a dream if I had just seen Abraham . Woke up ln bed and did. Truly good to see you mate. Woke up all excited.
5/04/2021 Was asking Abraham how come he was home from work. He had his hair at the longer length and a real cheeky look on his face. Good to see you Abraham/
Later. Not 100% sure it was Abraham but not sure who else it would have been. He was in a bed at the Rupanyup football ground asleep. I checked on him and woke him in the process. He woke angrily and said he was tired, I left him to sleep. Sorry about that mate.
10/04/2021 Was at an adult type bar, probably nudes about, not sure, with Michael McCarthy and Stephen Matthews and probably someone else. Those two were having a dispute about something so I asked if they wanted a drink. Stephen said yes please I went to order and found it was 10 dollars a pot. Wasn't too keen on that so went back to tell them how much. Abraham was there with them at a younger age about 12. I scratched his knee in recognition and he looked up and smiled happily. I told the others how much drinks were and we promptly left without another word spoken. Always good to see you Abraham.
16/04/2021 Bit hard to describe. At the end of it Abraham covered over some bed quilt which the dog had been on and dribbled some milk. I went out to do something and came back and realized he had covered before I had a chance to clean the milk off. He was only young and had his hair dyed redish for some reason or other. Kylie was about and I was about to tell him what he had done in an frustrated tone when I woke up. It was quite a dream. Hello Abraham. Haven’t really done the dream justice but it was a good dream. Lovely dream. Always good to see you Abraham.
23/04/2021 Entered a room, think. Anyway Abraham was there full of energy with Kylie Elise and Jo from memory. Only realized the dream after waking at the realization I had said 2 girls and boy or something like that. The definite was Abraham and he seemed well. Great to see you again, mate.
12/05/2021 John Kingston asked me where Abraham is. I said I didn’t know I don’t think he is with us any more. He didn’t survive a hit on the head. Woke feeling a neglectful father. Hope you are ok mate. Got faith in you.
13/05/2021 Was getting up to go work somewhere. Think I had a teaching job. Was surprised to find Jo sleeping on the floor beside the bed, Abraham was with her at a younger age just looking about. Think that is how the dream went. Didn't wake with a strong memory of it.
14/05/2021 Didn’t see Abraham but had a dream where Elsie said he had sent a message saying he was in June.
16/05/2021 was sitting in a comfortable chair Abraham was passed to me as a baby. He grew up a bit in my arms and I asked if he knew what all the words meant yet. He was considering his answer with a thinking smile on his face and I was going to ask him if he knew shirt as I woke up. That was a thrill. All the best Abraham.
28/05/2021 Remember earlier part of dream better. Awoke with an arm around Abraham saying I made a mistake brother. Earlier part of the dream had been Leslie Neilsen on a poster and Michael McCarthy driving a semi trailer up a steep hill. Just suddenly woke and said Abraham was in the dream. My guilt is my guilt forever Abraham.
2/06/2021 Think was up a building with Abraham, Then suddenly he was gone and I started wailing I have lost Abraham. Not sure how old he was, Hope everything is ok mate. I do have a lot of inner turmoil. Later saw Abraham again. Didn’t get up to write it down but he was happy. Not sure of his age in either dream. Probably about mid teens in each. He wasn’t unhappy in the first one. Just suddenly wasn’t to be found and everything went dark and I walking along what seemed like Minneboro road.
09/06/2021 I asked Abraham if it was a real romance or just one where he saw her at school. Not sure how it went from there. Hope things are ok mate.
12/06/2021 Didn’t get up but probably had a dream with Abraham in it. Not sure how it went. I was distressed and saying his name and then was congratulating members of a winning team or something and stumbled when it came to a team member called Abraham.
24/06/2021 Not sure of the context was just drifting into a snooze after lunch and saw Abraham. Looked fine.
12/07/2021 It had to have been Abraham. I was trying to find out what time it was on my computer. It was dark. I thought it was daylight and suddenly realized it wasnt. The little dog was there and we sort of in a cubby house. A voice from behind somewhere said “you will hurt the dog if I do something or other.” I said who is talking is it young man. And I woke up. Not a positive identification but couldn’t see how it could not have been Abraham. Circumstances.
13/07/2021 We were travelling around in a car. Seemed to be Seaby street Stawell. John Kingston was one and I was another and Abraham was another and we were in the back. He was about 15, I couldn’t believe it was him. Think I called him Rob at one stage and I was overjoyed within that he was there alive with us. I thought at some stage I would have to talk to him about his funeral and how everyone had gone into shock because we thought he had died. He was happy and it was just so great to see him.
30/07/2021 Jo and I were living in Gertrude st Stawell in the house of my grandparents, We had another a child, a baby just waking called George and Jo asked if I could take care of him or something. I was still in bed. I was talking to him and he was talking a bit as well. I explained we had Abraham but now you or something and his hair went red just like Kylie has died hers. Didn’t see Abraham specifically but….
14/08/3021 Abraham was about 10 and ducked under a toilet door causing someone to exit. Then I was trying to relieve myself having trouble getting started. I growled at Abraham a bit for causing the other person to come out. He was questioning about what he had done wrong and told him would have to wash his feet. Before I went in I could see his feet off the ground under the partition and I told him to avoid doing that because it was worrying, Hope everything is ok mate and good to see you.
04/09/2021 Can’t remember the context. Had seen Abraham a lot earlier in a dream and just realized it a whisker after waking up after a few hours sleep. Pretty sure it would have been along the lines of we thought he had died but somehow survived, Really wish I could recall it. Been a while but lovely to see you Abraham.
06/09/2021 Abraham was young and sitting with me with a smile on his face. Some others were around and I was just so happy. It was probably at Riachella. Went through the business of thinking he had not died after all and then realized I was dreaming and went looking for my computer to write the dream down and couldn’t find it. Woke up after some one was being macabre about suicide. Asked them not too mainly remember being so happy to be with you Abraham.
11/09/2021 Abraham was probably about 15 although he seemed to get younger. He was sitting on a toilet getting frustrated with toilet paper pulling it off and looked upset with something. It was going everywhere. I went to him and hugged him and told him it is ok you will get through this. After a while he laughed, didn’t seem to have any teeth and pulled his pants up. I said I hope your bottom is clean and he laughed again and said he had two wipes. He was happy again and I was some what detached and didn’t feel like going to work. Love you mate. From memory my motivation in giving you a hug was I am not going to let you hang yourself again.
16/09/2021 Not sure what the dream was about. Abraham was young and upset about something. I was to take him and Elsie and someone else to school in Stawell. He was arguing about which seat was his. Wish I could remember the dream better. Hope things are ok mate.
17/09/2021 Didn’t get up but there was a dream. Should have. Vaguely remember it was to do with the video I am making. Not sure. The reason I didn’t get up was I said to myself “he is ok”. Love seeing you mate.
22/09/2021 Both Abraham and I were driving taxis in Melbourne. He was called to a job and said he better get some fuel first. A supervisor was saying he would have enough just to look out for where sparrows are. That is a sign of European settlement. I added that even where you grew up there were sparrows. My thoughts in the dream were along the lines of he was fully recovered from the time he had an attempt on his own life. Love you Abraham.
27/09/2021 Abraham didn’t appear but Jock McGregor was offering to have his coffin moved to somewhere near his place and have it placed in the ground vertical. He seemed concerned about whether or not there was anything else in the coffin. I told him there was few little things. He had some special procedure arranged involving an African practice or something or other. Gee Abraham. Don't know what that was all about. Love you.
28/09/2021 Abraham had gone to Melbourne with the boys and he made it, Kylie and Elsie were in the dream. Think it had been a complex one. Enjoy yourself Abraham